hey what's up you guys yes i'm back and i hate myself ;) anyways, here's the second part of the last thing i did. there's two versions, and as promised, here's both of em. oh italics is the cute one and the bold is the angsty (idk not really tho) one.
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"oh, oh no, baby? y/n, princess, look at me, sweetheart," ethan spoke softly as y/n flinches to him attempting to hold her. "it hurts to see you move away when my only intention is to calm you down, babe." ethan declares. y/n looks up, cheeks much more tear stained than before, eyes red, her nose runny.
"please don't leave," y/n cries as ethan stares at her state. her hair the messiest its ever been, her voice hoarse, and she just needed someone to hold her.
"i should be the one telling you that," ethan wraps his arms around y/n, whispering sweet nothings to calm her down.
half an hour later, the two calmed down. ironic, isn't it? the one making you want to scream out of rage be the only one to calm you down.
"c'mon, let's get you some water, then we'll go take a bath, yeah?" ethan assists y/n on standing up, and when she was still a bit weak, ethan carried her to the kitchen.
turning on the kitchen lights, ethan sat y/n on the counter next to the sink as he fetches a glass of water, for her and him too. "here you go, princess." ethan held the glass in front of y/n, her taking it a few seconds after.
y/n finished it quite fast, and she takes a look at ethan who was in front of her. he looks like shit, to be completely honest. his eyes red and a bit puffy, hair a mess from pulling and tugging on it when he was pacing.
"i'm sorry, for earlier, e." y/n speaks up, ethan just smiling in response. "i meant what i said earlier, y/n. when i said-" ethan was now cut off by y/n's lips. ethan tenses at first, but kisses back not a moment later. ethan's hands finds y/n waist and backs her up to the nearest wall.
y/n pulls away, "i'm too tired, can we just cuddle?" ethan chuckles. "of course, after the bath, y/n. look at us, we look like shit." ethan states. "thanks, you look good too." y/n sassed, ethan smiling softly at her. "what?" "nothing, i just love you." ethan says, y/n wide eyed in shock. "w-what?" y/n stutters, "like you haven't heard me say that before, y/n. shut up." "but it's different now, we just fought for not being official and now you're throwing the l word like it's nothing." y/n protests, walking towards ethan's bathroom, him following. "yeah but i wasn't throwing it around, i meant it." ethan defends himself.
y/n turns around to look at ethan, who just shrugged and took y/n to the bathroom. as he prepares the bath, y/n takes out her phone and takes a few pictures then posting one on snapchat, with the caption "bathler 🤣🛁💙". she laughs to herself, ethan not one clue near why. ethan lights a few candles around the bath, and putting on their playlist.
y/n's phone started to vibrate, real fast, a bunch of notifications coming in. when she clicked her twitter, ethan's most recent tweet showed on the top of her timeline. attached with a picture of her right now, he captioned it with "be mine 😫💙". he chuckles as he knew y/n was reading it right now. y/n looked at ethan, shock evident in her face.
she tackles him to the ground, his phone, thankfully still recording, saved by ethan, who put it where it could record them both. y/n kisses ethan passionately, as she holds his whole face in her hands and ethan's hands rested on her hips. "be mine?" ethan smirks, "always been yours, e. always." y/n smiles. now it was ethan's turn to kiss her. "i love you, winghead." y/n states, ethan catching on her reference. "i love you too, shellhead." ((if u get that pls be my friend))
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"oh wow, more tears? how fucking mature, y/n. your tears won't do shit!" ethan's words sting. no matter how much she wanted her mind to change, to think it wasn't meant to hurt, she knew better. ethan spoke his mind when he's angry, and he's filled with rage now, although he wasn't the only one.
"i fucking hate you, ethan dolan! i wish we never met! i wish it was your heart that stopped instead of grayson's, then i wish it never pumped again!" y/n, like ethan, wasn't watching the words coming out of her mouth. it felt like knives taking turns on scarring ethan's heart when y/n yelled that.
when y/n realized what she said, ethan was already spilling out with anger. "death threats now?! truly, so mature, y/l/n." ethan stood up, grabbing a backpack and stuffing things in. "you need to leave." ethan threw the backpack at y/n feet.
"it's never too late to fix us, but right now, maybe we do need a break." ethan starts "just know," ethan holds both my hands and kisses them, "you're everything to me, y/n, and i'm not gonna deny it, i'd be lost without you.
you're my world, you're my home. the sun will shine on us again, you have my word. but you need to leave me alone right now."
y/n was crying harder that before. "e-eth, no, please, i lived my whole life with you by my side, don't, ethan, please." y/n begged but ethan grabbed the bag from her feet and put it on for her. ethan's tears were running freely but he needed to be tough.
"just promise to come back home, alright?" ethan kisses her forehead then her lips, despite both of them drowning in tears. "i love you, eth." y/n felt like she needed to tell him that. little did she know. "i love you more, y/n. now go, please, before this hurts us both even more." ethan pushes her towards the door. and she let him push her, out of the house, y/n let him push her away.
she broke down at their doorstep. she basically just lost everything. she opens her phone, speed dialing whoever was #3, because ethan was 1, grayson was 2. "hello?" a familiar voice answered, "h-hey, it's y/n." she hiccups. "oh, why'd you call? are you okay?" kian asks. "can you pick me up please? i'm at ethan's." she cries at her saying his name. "sure, give me a few."
while waiting for kian, she heard ethan's screams. his yells, for y/n. one in particular made her heart tighten, "i wanna go back, mom. i love her with all my heart, i can't believe i just pushed her away. can i go home?"
kian's car comes in sight and y/n runs towards it, not wanting him to honk but he did and ethan's screams stopped. she saw him look out the window, tears running down his cheeks when he saw it was kian.
kian drove by starbucks and got them both drinks, but he left y/n on the car. she opened her twitter, ethan's tweets sitting on top of her timeline. "at the end of the road, i see you and me", "i'll drown it out like i always do, and chase it down with a shot of truth" then the one that left everyone wigless, a picture of her rings next to one of her letters with the caption, "the lipstick stain fades with time".
it hurt, like hell. he was her first everything, basically. first bestfriend, first kiss, first road trip with no grown ups. so she tweeted back an indirect, "i know we break but we're not broken"
