within the diarys heart ❤

Chapter one: the friend

Chapter One

              Deep within the deeps of my heart I felt alone and lost within my mind. Not knowing what to do as tears, streaming down my cheeks as I read the words on the note left in my locker “it’s over, Barbra.” At that instance I knew, that this beginning of the year was going to be long, and difficult without loving arms to surround me. I walked down the lonely halls, passing by loads of people in the process. Even being in a full crowded hall and feeling lonely was kind of sad, even for me. I’m a very talkative and independent person, according to all of my “friends.” So called friends who hit me all the time, so really, wouldn’t consider them my friends. I have one true friend, but I haven’t seen her in ages. She’s been missing from the school for weeks and no one knows where her location is.

    I pull out my phone from my pocket during lunch, the first hours of the day flew by fast as I cried in them. I texted Jojo, my best friend.

As my principal closes in I slip my phone back into my pocket and stand there pulling out a book. “Having a good day today Barb? I see you where texting, just wondering who cause phones were supposed to be up 5 minutes ago.” I take a deep breath and let out a long sigh. “Hello Mr.Burns I was just texting JoJo to see where she’s been, she hasn’t been at school for weeks and I’m worried about her sir.” He looked at me, seeing deep into my soul knowing for what I said was true. “I will let you off with a warning cause I know how you feel about Ms.Barker. Carry on and hurry to your next class, don’t want Mrs.Burns to be angry at you, no?”

    Mr and Mrs Burns are a dynamic duo at this school.  The principal and his wife have grown closer over the 2 years I’ve known them, last year they tied the knot after 25 years. I have had a massive crush on JoJo for years, she's so pretty. I love her honestly but I don't ever wanna tell her cause I'm scared. I'm scared that she would deny me just because we are both girls and that we are both Christians, it's wrong to feel this way. So I decided I'd never tell her and just love her within the heart always. I got a text from JoJo.

I was packing up my school stuff, Mrs.Burns was my final class of the day. I was looking forward to seeing JoJo and to tell her how I feel about her. I get into my car and drive to the hospital and go to the room number she said sitting down in the chair next to her bed. She opened her eyes. “Bar-Barbra?” I cry as I hear her weak voice say my name and I grab her hand as tears swell into her eyes. “Yes JoJo baby girl I'm here.” I rub the back of her hand with my thumb.

“Barb I want to tell you something important. I was in a car wreck a few weeks ago and I don't know if I'll make it through tonight's surgery but I wanna tell you something. I love you. I always have and always will.” Tears well into my eyes and I give her a gentle kiss on her lips. Leaving her speechless. “JoJo I have been working up the courage for years to tell you that. I've wanted to ask you to be my girlfriend but I know as Christians it is wrong but… I wanted to ask anyways. Will you be my girl-” I get cut off with JoJo giving me a kiss.

“Barb I'd want nothing more than to be your girl.” I wrap my arms around her crawling into the hospital bed next to her. I give her forehead a kiss and she blushed. In walked Mrs.Barker, JoJo's mom. I quickly jump out of the bed, scared as she walked into the room. Behind a pillow I hold JoJo's hand. “Hello Mrs.Barker. I was here just visiting JoJo, I'm on my way out.” I wave goodbye to JoJo shooting her a quick wink. That is our way of saying 'i'll text you later’ her mom gently grabbed my arm. “Would you please stay with JoJo.. I can't stay myself as I have to go to work. Stay with her for surgery, please Barb.” I look to JoJo for permission and she sharply shakes her head yes. “I will Mrs.Barker, please, get to work before your late.” I give her a quick hug returning to JoJo's side.

“Ok surgery is at 6pm, in almost 2 hours. Be good you two.” She says as she walks out of the room. I crawl back into the bed next to JoJo holding her hands as she lays her head on my chest. She giggles at me. “What?” I say. “I never in a million years thought that this could be a reality. Us. Here. Now. And I love it. Being here with you I mean.” I kiss her forehead pulling her close, but not too close to hurt her. She sits up straining her back. “There's something I want to do, and I want to know if your ok with it.” I stroked my chin saying “oh? You mean this?” I gently kiss her neck. She smiled and nods her head. “How about we wait till after the surgery? Plus your in a lot of pain JoJo I don't want to hurt you babe.”

She whined making me feel bad I almost gave in and just gave her kisses. She was content, for now. Making her happy was my only goal. “Ok Miss Barker it's time for your surgery on your knee.” The nurse said as she prepared her for surgery. “Would you like to come Miss?” I nod my head slightly. I think the nurse knew about me and her but didn't say a word because of the whole 'parents’ thing. Time passes and the surgery was a success and there we are back in the hospital room. It's 3am and I have school in a few hours. I text my mom, who was freaking out.

“Great” I mumble under my breath as JoJo hears it. “What's wrong?” I sigh putting my head on her chest as I cry “my mom says I'm grounded for life because I forgot to text her where I was.” JoJo pulls me close running her hand through my hair “shhh it's ok she just needs some time to cool off. Get some rest, you got school today unless you don't wanna go?” I shake my head. I just wanted to stay in her loving arms all day and not go home. “I want you stay here with you all day.” she smiles kissing my head “then you can. You deserve it for being here with me all night” we both slowly drift off to sleep in each other's warm arms.
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Thanks for reading my first chapter of my original book chapter 2 tomorrow.