Lost Cause

Danger Night

This was it, the day I had to say goodbye to my best friend

Me and Matt sat in my room getting ready and watching, Harry Potter: Order Of The Phoenix

I was sat at my dresser looking blankly in the mirror before I reached for my foundation

After I finished my make-up I braided my hair to one side and went to look for my clothes

I picked my black skater dress, black oversized cardigan, tights, and black toms

And for the first time since we started going out I got changed in front of him

Just after I slipped my tights on and I was stood there in my bra he came over and slipped his hands round my waist

He ran his hands along my rib bones that were still very visible

"I could look at you all day Megan, your just to beautiful" for about 2 months after we met I refused to believe him or even let him say that to me, I still don't think I'm beautiful but when he said it I could tell he saw the things I couldn't

"Your not to bad yourself" we both smirked a little as he pulled away, still only in his boxers

I reached for my dress and slipped it on, then my cardigan I rolled the cuffs up slightly as they were to long and finally my toms

I turned round to see Matt buttoning up his shirt, I went over to him once he had finished and placed the tie around his neck loosely tying it for him

He put his jacket on and we went downstairs, we were the last ones down and all the boys were wearing pretty much the same outfit no variation and mum was wearing a-line black dress, grey blazer, tights and some black ankle boots

"You all set?" My dad asked he knew how bad today was going to be for me, I just nodded picked up my guitar and we all headed to the car

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"Now a great friend of Maddie's is going to come and perform a song written for her" I slowly got up rubbing my sweaty palms on my dress as I took my guitar and went to the front of the church

I looked round to see the solom faces of all of Maddie's family even her dad

Then I looked over to my mum and dad both with a soft smile on their lips, Matt, Ed, Harry, Niall, Liam and Zany all gave me the same soft sympathetic smile

I said a few words before I started

"Maddie was more than a best friend to me she was my light in the dark she was my angel but now that angel has had to go home"

I started to strum forgetting everyone and everything around me

"I try to sleep but my eyes are open

I can't think cause my heart is broken

And there's a blade right next to me

I'll make a few cuts just to take the pain away

I wanna say all the things I need to say

I won't lie, I'll just tell them honestly

If God can take a friend away from me

Then I can say all I want and he won't do anything

My tongue is weak and every time I try to speak I can't say nothing at all

Sleep well, my friend

There will be another moment we'll meet again

Just let it go