I Miss You: Ashton Irwin

Chapter 19

14th of August 2019

"I miss you," was that first thing Ashton said to me when I answered his Skype call. I had just got home from work, and Ashton was currently in Los Angeles with the boys, recording some songs and doing numerous interviews and television appearances.

"I miss you too," I said placing my laptop on my dinner table, quickly placing some leftover pasta in the microwave, before sitting down at my dinner table, facing Ashton once again.

"How was work?" he asked as I took a bite of my pasta, swallowing it before answering his question.

"Good, fairly busy as we have a new campaign coming up," I said with a smile. "How is Los Angeles?" I asked before taking another mouthful.

Ashton then began to talk about how great Los Angeles has been, and how close they are to finishing the album. It was currently twelve in the morning in Los Angeles, meaning Ashton was about ready to go to bed.

"I can't wait to hear everything," I said with a smile as Ashton took a sip of his tea from a white mug. "You can go to sleep if you want," I said and Ashton shook his head but I knew that he was tired. Ashton only drank tea, and right now he was into his second cup of the evening.

"I want to talk to you Gracie," he said with a pout and I sighed, as I felt like we were back to where we used to be when he first started touring around the world. The hardest part is not being apart from them, but the extreme time difference. The worst was in Europe, as most of the time when you were waking up they were going to bed, and vice verse.

"Ash, you are tired," I said with a sympathetic smile. "I'll see you in a week, then we will have all the time in the world," I said with a smile. My heart was aching, as I desperately wanted to talk to him and be with him, but I knew he needed to sleep, as the bags underneath his eyes were the most prominent I had seen them in months.

"Alright, I'm sorry sweetheart."

"Really Ash, it's okay."

"Okay," he said with a small smile. "Goodnight Grace, I love you."

"Goodnight Ashton, I love you too," I said with one last smile and then he was gone. I sighed in slight disappointment, as I really wanted to talk to him, but I knew that he was tired and deserved a good nights rest. I finished my dinner, and before I could even put my bowl in the dishwasher, Gemma texted me.

From: Gemma <3

oi, I am coming over with a bottle of wine, make sure u have one too

To: Gemma <3

okay, how far away are you???

From: Gemma <3

i am actually outside your house, was just making sure it was okay for me to actually be here lol

I let Gemma in after putting my bowl in the dishwasher, a smile on her face.

"I need to cry," is all she said when she poured herself a large glass of wine, as I did the same for myself.

"What is up?" I asked as we sat down on my couch, throwing a blanket over us to keep us warm.

"Michael."

"What about him?" I questioned, not knowing that there was anything wrong between the couple.

"Why can't he just propose already?" she asked and I sighed, knowing that we were going to be having this conversation sooner or later.

"It is Michael, you know that he likes to take his time with things."

"I know, but we have been together for a long time," Gemma huffed, and before I could interject so continued to talk. "I know what you are going to say, that we were on and off for a long time, but Lauren and Calum have only been together for two years, and they are engaged already."

I knew how Gemma was feeling. The sense of doubt when your other half goes away, or when another person that you are close with gets engaged, leaving you confused as to why you are not engaged either. I thought Ashton was going to propose when we were both twenty-one, as we would have been together for around six years, but twenty-one came and went, and I was left without a ring on my finger.

"I know how you are feeling Gemma, I really do," I said before taking a large sip of my wine. "But it is Michael, he is probably just waiting for the right time to ask you, and it will happen, Gemma, you know that it will," I said with a supportive smile, but her eyes were large and still longed for answers.

I knew that Gemma was unsure of the future and what was going to happen between her and Michael, but she had no reason to be. Gemma is one of the most stunning humans I know, and she has a personality to much as well. Michael is so in love with Gemma that it is insane, I think he is just waiting for a consecutive amount of time for them to be together, without him having to jet off overseas again or Gemma having to go to work every day of the week.

"I just want to get married," she sighed and I understood what she meant. We were both on the verge of twenty-five, both of us entering the prime stages of our lives. Both of us want a large family, and I know that both Michael and Ashton do as well, but none of that seems like a possibility at the moment.

"Me too Gem, me too."

We both ended up finishing a bottle of wine each, both of us ending up very wine drunk on a Wednesday night, which was slightly embarrassing but what can you do really. Gemma ended up falling asleep on my couch, and I ended up placing a few blankets over her so that she would not get cold during the middle of the night.

I ended up having a shower rather late, my mind consumed by thoughts of Ashton and how much I was missing him at the moment. I was so used to having him around again, that I had forgotten what it was like when he was gone. I missed being able to climb into bed next to him after a long day at work. I missed how I was always guaranteed, a warm cup of coffee first thing in the morning when we were with each other. I just simply missed him being around.

I eventually crawled into bed, wearing a grey jumper that smelt like Ashton's favourite Armani cologne, making me miss him even more. His side of the bed was cold and empty, and it felt like I had not seen him for weeks. Even though he was gone for just over two weeks, it never got any easier. Whether it was five months or four days, Ashton being away from me never got any easier.

It was easy to fall back into old habits, thinking about if this was going to last with him, even though I knew that it was. I just wanted him around, and right now, that was something that I could not have.

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