Left Behind In Her Past

What a Shitty Start

Chapter 14

Lilah's POV

I sat in my room staring at all my band posters. I stared at the Black Veil Brides poster and then at the All Time Low. I sighed heavily "why am I such a fuck up." I tried to grab a tissue off my dresser but couldn't reach so I used my shirt to wipe away my tears. I began to think. I just don't feel like I'm good enough for him. I'm not 'girlfriend material'. Why does he even love someone like me.

He doesn't even know me anymore...

I heard my phone go off. I read the screen and it said Lucidity💅

"Yo Broski!"

"Hey." I texted back.

"What's up? Why don't you have emojis or faces?? You ALWAYS use them?"

"Not in the mood right now. That's all."

"DO I NEED TO SLAP A BISH?!"

"No maybe slap me for being one."

"What happened dude?"

"I got into a fight with Dace."

"Actual fight..or?"

"Argument."

"Oh well want to tell me? Or FaceTime omggggg I know what you need!"

"And what would that be?"

"NETLFIX YOU NEED THE BAE"

"Wtf is bae??"

"Omg keep up with the trends chica. Bae=Before Anyone Else. I use it as an acronym."

"You know I don't follow trends?? Plus the way you used it doesn't make any sense??"

"Broski you need to okay? And idc if I don't make sense. Keep up with your lingo >.>"

"so how am I going to watch netflix?"

"Bish leave that to me! (;"

"Alrighty you have fun with that."

15 minutes later I heard the doorbell ring. And here she was.

"Hey brahh! brought my laptop and charger. Is you're Gma home?"

"Today's bingo night. Grandma likes to get her bingo on."

"Haha okay let's go to your room and set this baby up!" She squealed wih excitement. "GUESS WHAT ELSE I BROUGHT?!"

"Food? Cause I'm hungry."

"Dude you know me so well.."

"Well we've only been friends since Hawaii?"

"True and then I followed your booty here with my step father"

"So what did ya bring?" I tried to grab the bag away from her.

" I made fettuccine Alfredo! Yum! OMG, you're birthday is a few months from now!! I almost forgot ugh."

"Oh yeaah.."

"You're not happy to be fifteen? Wait aren't you having a quince?"

"Yep.. Grandma is forcing me since it's tradition and blah blah..CRAP I haven't even asked for people to be in the court craaaapp ! Grandma is going to MURDER me!!"

"Hakuna your tatas girlie" she put her hand up as to stop me. "The court can be small I'll be in it and you can ask dace to be your main and what about that Lacey girl you told me about? And that guy Mason" she winked and I rolled my eyes.

"Why you wink at me?" I raised my eyebrow.

"Cause that Mason guy seems like more than a friend?" She winked again and nudged me. "I'm kidding I know you like Dace."

"About that. He said he loves me. Don't get mad I knew I should've told you as soon as he told me but I don't know..I just didn't know what to do."

"He loves you? But he doesn't even know you that much? Wait do you feel the same?"

"No I like him. Well sorta" I look away from her.

"What do you mean sorta?" Oh no here come her lecture.

"Well I don't know him much except the fact that he's an amazing artist. I kinda felt bad that he has loves me all these years and stuff. I guess I was kinda in the moment. So I sorta told him I'd never leave again." I sighed and braced myself for it.

"Girl. You're in deep shit. You can't just like a guy on because you feel pity for him? Are you kidding me? You need to tell him the truth. Because if you don't you're only making it worse on you."

"I know I know. I just don't want to hurt him."

"Either way your gunna hurt him. The sooner you do it the better it is for him to move on with his life."

"Okay. I'll do it. I don't know when. But I will. Okay mom?"

"Psh I'm not your mom you're mom is d-" she stopped before finishing the word. "OH MY GOD IM SORRY!!! I didn't mean to say it like that it's just ughh I'm sorry Lials!"

"It's fine I know you didn't. She may be dead but she's always with me." I smiled and looked down at my antique necklace. I brought it up to my lips and kissed it before letting it fall back into place.

"Okay let's just watch netflix now. What shall we watch??"

"Umm I don't know I don't use netflix?"

"Fine supernatural it is! I barely started but I don't mind watching the first two episodes again."

"Okie dokie." I watch her take out two plates and forks. Then she took out two Arizona Teas. "Do I serve myself?"

"Nah I got it." She split the alfredo into two portions and placed eacjv on a plate. "Bon apetite!"

That night actually felt normal. Like I was back home with her and everything felt alright.