Left Behind In Her Past

Life Hurts

Chapter 16

Lilah's POV

I don't recall much. I heard them say I have a concussion after that hit. They say I'm lucky. But I don't feel lucky at all.

I remember this much though:

My grandma had died just last night. The last of my family. Gone. I ran out of the hospital wanting to get away. Hoping it was all a dream. It wasn't. Lucidity chased after me but when I stopped to turn around. I ended up stopping in the middle of the street.

Right then I hit the windshield of someone's car. And I landed on the cold asphalt when they stopped. Lucidity screamed. Her voice piercing through the air. After that I lost consciousness.

Waking up I turned to my right to see Lucidity fumbling with her hands. My raspy voice called out "Lucid."

"Shhh don't talk okay. I'm sorry. I should've held on to you. This is all my fault I should've waited until we got home. I'm sorry this happened." She began to cry. And I wiped her tears.

"It's not your fault. It's not your fault that life likes to take everything that's important to me." I whispered to her. She hugged me.

"Ow."

"Sorry!" She backed away.

"It's okay." I tried to smile but it hurt to even do that. "Am I going to be okay?"

"Yes, you have a concussion and two broken ribs. The doctors said that it could've been fatal. But I was quick enough to grab help. You lost a lot of blood. They stitched up your head. You ended up getting hit pretty hard. I'm so happy you didn't die too." She hd my hand tighter. She never looked away, fear that I would die if she did.

Lucidity was there every day until the doctors said I could go home. She even slept here with me. She brought balloons and flowers. She even got kicked out of her school for me because she missed too many days. She said it was worth it.

"Finally I get to go home." I let out a sigh of relief. Thank god I no longer have to eat hospital food. But now I have to go home to an empty house which no longer feels like home.

"Come stay with me and my step dad." Lucidity offered.

"No I couldn't impose on you."

"Please we have another room. Live with us. We'd love to have you live with us from now on."

"Luci-"

"You're coming home with me. You don't have anyone to watch over you. Now come on." She grabbed my hand and opened the passenger door to her car. "I'll be applying to your school. Isn't that great?" She smiled and started the car.

I was on another journey. This one was how to live without the only family I had left. Life must absolutely hate me.

Three Days Later

Monday, August 18th

Well I missed a while week of school and I'm finally back. This time with my best friend. The only person left who I guess I could consider my family now. She's like an older sister I suppose. She's a sophomore. Now she drives me to school and everything. Lucidity is the best 'sister' I could have ever asked for. I'm grateful we met.

"So are you gunna give me the grand your if the school?" She asked

"Well I suppose. But I might have to ditch my classes." I looked at her.

"Ah don't do that stay in class. You need it. Okay?"

"Alright mum." I rolled my eyes and laughed.

"Whatever I'll catch you at lunch okay?"

"Okie dokie." We hugged and waved goodbye. She started running back to me.

"I forgot. Since your phone got totally wrecked when you got hit. My step dad bought you a new one. Not the same as before but still nice." She handed me a silver iPhone 5. "We backed up your old phone since it still sorta worked and then put everything into this one. Text me if you need anything, okay?"

"Thank you so much. This is way better than my iPhone 4. You're a great friend."

"I know." She laughed and we hugged again. I waved goodbye and turned my phone on. 28 messages all from Dace. Sheesh 3 messages wasn't enough? I clicked on his messages.

Hey. Can you call me?

Look, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have acted that way.

Please talk to me Lilah.

I need to know if we're okay.

Lilah?

Are you okay?

I've called 6 times why aren't you answering?

I scrolled past the rest. I didn't want to talk to him or anyone else except for Lucidity. I wanted to isolate myself. Crawl into a hole and die. Just die. That's all I wanted to do. Life sucks, so much.

I went on to first period. Then the rest of my morning classes. I was simply breathing, not even living. I felt dead. A silent zombified version of Lilah. I didn't want to live right now.

The lunch bell rang. Lucidity texted me.

"Feeling okay?"

"No. I'm not. Can I die now?" I replied

"No you're not allowed to. I forbid you."

"Chu suck you know that?"

"Why cause o want my bestie alive?"

"Yuss exactly."

"When life gets rough you can't give up."

"Why is that?"

"Because problems are temporary. Death isn't."

"EXACTLY! Everyone I loved died! Can't I go with them wherever they're going??"

"When it's your time to leave you'll know but until then you're gunna keep living and breathing with me."

"But life hurts. It likes to hurt me."

"Then keep fighting. Show it you're stronger."

"But what if I'm not."

"Stronger? You are, you need to believe in yourself more. You have potential but you'll never see it."

"Alright. Where are we meeting?"

"Actually I think one more day won't hurt."

"Hurt what?"

"Absence record."

I felt someone grab me. I turned to see it was Lucidity. And off we went back home.