Confessions about people in my former past life

Friends part 2- L.P.

You taught me how to live on the edge, live on the wild side of life. I went to high school with you a long time ago and we never really got super close till after I graduated. We actually became friends because we shared the same ex whom we both hated at the time. So you introduced me to a lifestyle called petty and drama. I did stupid shit with you that was fun at the time.

Doing petty things like vandalism and theft from our exes house, to talking and gossiping about others. The realization that this life wasn't meant for me came when you chose to do an extreme decision that could have gone way worse. You decided to slash our ex boyfriends moms tires knowing that even the idea was too far. Not only was his mother involved in the mess but, police were involved and our ex even threatened on social media that he was gonna kill us. Our mutual friend at the time and I decided to go to the police the next day to report his assaults and we were able to get something done about it.

However you weren't satisfied enough so the harassment began for you towards him and his girlfriend at the time. You were willing to throw me and our friend under the bus because he already knows what I did before this happened which was throw a huge rock at his car window that didn't work obviously because I'm weak, you were willing to throw away our friendship and backstab me in the back all because you didn't want to get caught. I got tired of all the drama after a while and I cut you off.

I don't want the extra stress in my life and I didn't need you starting more drama than there already was. Yes you were there a few times but the only time we ever hung out was to do petty shit. Our mutual friend did the same thing after a while and so it was just me and her with you out of the picture. That made you angry and so you decided to post about me, you decided to talk shit about me behind my back to my ex whom you supposedly hated. Time has passed and so has my relationship with the other girl. Her and I are no longer friends so you both decided out of pettiness and clearly didn't grow up and become better, you two became friends again.

Only to talk shit about me, post about me, and repeat the same routine over and over again. A never ending cycle of frenemies. Yes I admit my life was ridiculous and I made stupid decisions you told me not to make and I did anyway. You were there for me, rare moments. But real friends are 100% with each other so it's best that we aren't friends because clearly you haven't changed and you'll continue to be stuck in one hole while I'm out progressing.

Thank you though for making me realize how shitty of a friend I was. Because now I can get real friends, I can be a real friend, and I bettered myself to where I can finally say, I'm okay with and without you.

(Continuem 2019)

Since I have wrote this I have delt with no drama from this particular person nor do I wish to speak Ill. Moving forward with my life has been the absolute best decision ever. Though not too long ago about a month or two L.P came to my Instagram to message me a "apology". Let me just quote word for word. "I hope I give you peace with this apology. Keep it, hate it, accept it. I apologize for what I've done in the past to you because I've already forgiven you for what you've done to me months ago and thought you should know whatever you feel is completely one sided if it's negative. I wish you the best and Hope continue to be positive!" 

I did reply saying how it's kinda odd to do this considering it was random, nothing has been said to this person nor has anything been done in a negative way to receive a "apology." Even if there was this was pretty much just some naive drama filled scenario that is claimed to be sorrowful but only to look more desperate for attention. THAT IS JUST MY OPINION! I do not know nor care if it was a real apology or not . It's just that  I don't get it coming from someone who claims to have moved on and to word it in such a way to seem kind but really in pettiness is confusing. Like I said nothing negative is going to be said about this person just for the reason of they have real no affect in my life positive nor negative and therefore is just a distraction to distort me from where I need to be and what I need to focus on. Other than that nothing much can be done and said.

If it was a sincere apology, all they had to say was, "I'm just doing the right thing, I'm sorry for what happened" and let bygones be bygones. This is just my opinion more or less due to how they act on social media. Whenever they have problems with anyone they seem to take it to the internet to boast about maturity and yet act by being petty about it. Petty is a term used to define a person's behavior. Google definition: characterized by an undue concern for trivial matters, especially in a small-minded or spiteful way. Being petty in personal experience is just lame. 

Anyway all said and done, nothing about my actions nor theirs can be changed and mine can't be justified since I'm not a kid anymore. I see I have more to offer than being on the kind of level that could sink me lower to standards under my moral judgements and philosophies. For them I don't know if it truly was out of pettiness nor can I make judgements. But since they messaged me clearly I have the right to make assumptions but not to publicly blasphemy on their name considering things have been done a bit more than a year ago and social media isn't the place for things like this. Personal stuff stays off social platforms especially dealing with "drama" between other people. I simply write this out because a former ex friend P.J recently messaged stating he read what I wrote about L.P and I was not up for anymore bullshit. I am simply stating the facts of what happened and my side of the story since everyone else seems to have theirs. THIS IS NOT TO CAUSE ANY TROUBLE! I do not want petty bullshit nor do I want anyone coming at me sideways. I have moved on and I started this book on June on the 26th, 2018 and it is now July 6, 2019. I wrote this out of the fact that everyone involved in this friends section has publicly told their story and I'm just doing the same. So understand from here on out anything that happens after this will not be written down. If I have offended anyone, private message my insta @ 420_spooky_queen_witch and I will change whatever was offending accordingly. 

Sincerely your ex friend,
Kat