Warped Tour 2K18

Chapter Thirteen

I look up to see Andy looking down at me with a small smile, "Good morning beautiful"

"Hey" I sit up a little

"What happened earlier?" He asks

"I don't know" I shrug

"Yeah you do" He whispers, and I just shrug "Here, I'm not going to say anything, I'm not gonna tell anyone, I'm just gonna listen. Tell me everything"

"You'll get mad if I tell you" I sigh

"I promise I won't" he holds my hand

"Ashley just said something that reminded me of something" I shrug "I over reacted"

"What'd he say?" He frowns

"Just how he was talking about sex yesterday... and he said he did it at fourteen, and then asked when I did it..."

"Did someone hurt you?" He asks

"Kind of... I don't know" I look away

"Hey" Andy looks at me "I won't tell anyone, just tell me what happened"

"Cole happened" I cringe

"Wait that guy you invited? What did he do?" I can tell he's starting to get angry

"It wasn't yesterday or anything, it was a long time ago. We're friends now, it just reminded me of what happened"

"And what happened?" He asks a little more calmly

"I liked him for about two years, and when he found out, he took advantage of that and used me"

"Used you how?" He asks

"We did things... together. And he kept telling me he wasn't ready for a relationship. Then we... had sex... and three days later, he started dating someone else and pretended like nothing ever happened" I shrug

"Did stuff, like what?"

"We were basically friends with benefits. Except I actually had feelings and he didn't... he pretended like he did though. He'd tell me he loved me, and make me feel like, I was actually special. We'd meet up and hangout, watch movies and hangout at the park, go skating. But also other stuff... like sexual stuff... Then eventually we went all the way, and then after he just left. And I was really fucked up after" I tell him

"Fucked up how?" He asks

"Before him and I did shit... I was already depressed. I cut, had maybe three suicide attempts, then when we did things. I for once felt like someone cared. We did shit for three months, and during that time I didn't cut, it anything. Then as soon as he started dating that girl. I tried to kill myself always every week, and I cut over the smallest things and all the time. But I got so bad that I couldn't feel it anymore when I cut. And the pills, just the smell made me gag and I couldn't take it anymore."

Andy stayed silent

"I was thirteen..." I continue "I was innocent, and he took that. Ever since I've never been able to be close with anyone... or I tried once but that's another story"

"Your lucky you didn't tell me that before you hung out with him" Andy mumbles "What a piece of shit"

"Things are different now" I whisper

"Amanda you can do so much better then him. If you let him back he's just going to hurt you"

"I don't know" I shake my head "I don't know"

"How long has it been since you..."

"Cut?" I ask and he nods "I don't know, six months"

"Never do it again okay?" He says

"I won't" Andy hugs me and my eyes start to water, he is my hero