Le Petit Mort

Chapter 25

The girls were at Jessie house on their way to the airport waiting for Jisoo. Hobi and Yoongi are on their way back to the apartment while the rest of us are packing our bags for an early flight.

Yoongi convinced me to delay informing the boys until we got back from Bruscela. Bang PD accepted and would give me a month to change my mind. None of them knew that as soon as we got back from Portugal, I'll be packing my bags away from the dorm.

"I'm busy. Call me later!" Jungkook said over the phone and after that he giggles.

"That's a little too much Bunnykins." I said. "If Jimin heards you, you'll be dead."

"Well, she's pissing me off big time now." Jungkook said. "What amazes me however is that she's not telling Mochiballs about our fights."

"Maybe it's a try out for your married life or something." I said.

Jimin came out of the room which immediately shuts Jungkook's trap.

"Are you guys hungry? I can cook." He said. "What time is our flight tomorrow?"

"Nine but we need to be there at five. They agreed to let us board early." I said as I sat by the dinner table.

I saw Jin's car approaching the apartment and smiled. At least Hobi got what he wants. At least everybody's happy even if I'm not.

Although when they came in the door, Hobi was howling while Yoongi tries to calm him.

"What the fuck?" I blurted out.

Yoongi shakes his head. "He's just emotional. They didn't broke up."

"Hyung! Don't forget the ring okay?! It's overwhelming but it'll make you so happy afterwards." Jungkook said as he hugged Hobi.

Hobi's proposing big time and even ordered pyrotechnics for his proposal. I looked at him and he began to stop crying, looking at me for support. "Ask the Jungkook and Yoongi, not me." I said as I look outside again.

Watching their reflection on the glass, makes me feel sullen. The realization that I'll be leaving makes me think of the good times we had.

It still feels the same being with them. The happiness we all shared, the support for another. Jimin's smile as he tries to pinch Hobi's side. Taehyung and Jungkook doing ridiculous poses. Even Yoongi can't help laughing.

As melodramatic as it may sound, it all plays in slow motion. It was happier times again. It makes me rethink of my decision.

— but a part of me is dead inside. There was a small hole inside me that was missing. The same small hole that won't let me join them while they cheer. I feel left out. I don't belong because I can't be truly happy.

Taehyung smiled as he came closer. His arms wrapped around my shoulder as he pointed outside.

"I think she's in that cab." He said. "I predict she'll be—"

I didn't let him finish whatever shit he plans to say, I quickly ran for the door, my heart was thumping out of my chest. I can't contain my excitement. I don't what to say but the only thing I'm sure is that I wanted to see her again.

"Hyung! Don't run! The floor on the fire exit is—"

Before I knew it, my long legs scraped over the floor. Sliding as I tried to hold on to the rails but to no avail, the rusted bar gave way when it wasn't able to support the whole weight of my body.