"Ja-Jan?" He hesitantly ask.
I nodded when I started to cry. Then I felt his arms around me. I know he was just trying to comfort me but I felt even more sorry for myself.
I've given my virginity to someone who didn't even know it was me. I gave i...
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Namjoon and Jaehee didn't heard me when I got out of the room. While beside the balcony, I overheard their discussion.
It brings me great pain that it's my fault that Namjoon's serene life was turned into chaos because of my involvement.
Jaehee hugged Namjoon and with the pain, a pang of jealousy came over me. They look good together. Jaehee doesn't have a previous relationship who will destroy Namjoon's career.
Before I wallow anymore in self pity, I knock at the door of the balcony. Jaehee and Namjoon break their hug, what hurts me the most was seeing Namjoon crying because of me.
"I'm gonna sleep. So— Jaehee and you, would you share a room or should I take the couch."
Jaehee wore a disgust face making me a bit at ease, "I'll take the couch." I smiled and I turned around.
"What's wrong?" Namjoon grabbed my arm and he pulled me enough so that I was facing him. There were still traces of tears on his face.
"I'm kinda tired so— I'll be staying here longer so I can stay in the couch for the time being." I said.
"What are you saying? I'm staying here with you until you start your classes. Jiwon also said you can stay here, your school is just thirty minutes away." He said.
"Hey! I'm sleeping. I'm off early tomorrow. I don't wanna share bed with you because I might end up dead so I'll take the other room upstairs." Jaehee said as she took her bag.
Namjoon's hand trace my arms and held my hands. "What's wrong?"
"You should go with her back to Korea, I can take care of the school matters." I said. "If that's the only reason why you're here."
"I'm not here because of that."
You're here because you're running away from all the problems I've caused.
"I'm sorry, Namjoon. I heard what you talked about and I'm sorry." I begin to sob. "I could call Hyungwon and I know he'll forgive me. I could be with him until— until it's safe again."
"Jan— promise me you won't do that."
"But—"
"Jan, promise me. I might be running away from what will happen but it doesn't stop me from thinking on how to prevent it."
"This is all my fault. I shouldn't have—"
"If this someone's fault, it's not you. It's Hyungwon. He's the one who has ill intentions. Not you."
I continued to cry and Namjoon pulled me back to his arms. "I'm sorry for hurting you again, Jan. I promise, after this you won't cry."
