My Abusive Thug

Chapter 13: Stay Strong

Lena is in MM.

Tell me what you say now?
Tell me what you say
Come again?

If you cannot stay down
Then you do not have to pretend
Like there is no way out
I shoulda never let you in
Cause you got me face down

And don't take this personal
But you're the worst
You know what you've done to me
And although it hurts I know
I just can't keep runnin' away

I don't need you
But I want you
I don't mean to
But I love you

Tell me what you say now
Tell me what you say?
You said that you would come again
You said that we would remain friends but
You know that I do not depend on
Nothing or no one
So why would you show up
So uninvited then
Just change my mind like that

Please don't take this personal
But you ain't shit
And you weren't special
Til I made you so
You better act like you know
That I've been through worse than you
I just can't keep running away
But I don't need you

Everybody's like
He's no item
Please don't like em
He don't wife em
He one nights em
I never listened
No
I shoulda figured though
All that shit you was spittin'
So unoriginal
But it was you
So I was with it
Then tell you the truth
Wish we never did it

Cause I usually do
Stick to the business
But you came out the blue
And then you just flipped it
God damn baby
My mind's blown
Be forgettin'
You live in a different time zone
Think I know what this is
It's just the time's wrong
Yeah I know what you did
But baby I'm grown
And my love is patient
And kind, and shit
This is real we can build
Through different types of shit
If you was really the realest
Wouldn't be fightin' it
I think your pride is just
In the way
Funny how everything changed
Once you got all that you wanted
Nothing was ever the same

And though
I don't need you
I still want you
I don't mean to
But I love you

I don't need you
But I want you
I don't mean to
But I love you

The Worst- Jhene Aiko 🙌

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Mel's Pov

My meeting with Lena left me emotionally and physically drained. I didn't feel like going back home. I can't even face Marques right now. I fail to understand what I did to make him cheat on me. Am I ugly or something? Not sexy enough? What does Leah have that I don't have?😫

I tried my best to make Marques happy. I did everything he asked.

I need to stop beating myself up. I decided to stay at Lena's house for the night.

"Hey you okay? You got all quiet on me?" Asks Lena looking stealing glimpses at me while driving.

"I'm okay. I just have a lot on my mind."

Lena continues to drive.

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"You've been to my house plenty of times. You can stay in the guest room. Since you don't have a change of clothes you can borrow a t-shirt and some shorts. They might be a little big. Your so tiny compared to me." Says Lena

"Hey I'm not that tiny." 😩

"If you say so. I'll be in my room if you need me." Says Lena before leaving the room. She closes the door on her way out.

I strip out my clothes and walk into the bathroom.

I take a shower that lasted way too long. I ended up sitting at the bottom of the tub crying. By the time I left the shower my body turned into a prune. My head was hurting and my eyes were blood shot red.