HAPPINESS | NOMIN

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Guilt is the worst demon to bear

It strangles you

From inside your body

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Jenos Phone

Jaemin

Where are you
Sent

Please answer
Sent

I need to see you
Sent

I'm sorry
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I'm so sorry you were right and I was wrong but please don't do anything stupid, let me help.
Sent

I miss u.
Sent

Jeno please :(
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Answer meeee pleassseee :(((
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Jenos phone buzzed nonstop with text messages from Jaemin, and he didn't bother trying to reply. What would he say anyway?

"Oh it's fine Jaemin, you just punched me and left with your girlfriend, oh and did I mention that I helped you through everything and let you live with me even though I know you don't love me. It's fine because I love you." No, that would be stupid, he would sound desperate.

Maybe he was desperate. Jeno curled himself in a ball, and let his dull eyes land on his phone which was blowing up with text.

Desperate for a someone to love, to lean on. Someone who would love him for who he is and not who others see him as. He just wish that someone was Jaemin, but it's not, and it hurts to know that. That Jeno loved him, and it was all one sided. He was always the one who loved more.

He dug his head in his already damp pillow, and cried as he watched Jaemins text messages fly by on his cracked phone. He watched as the other said so many 'I'm sorrys' and 'please tell me where you are.' He didn't know what to do. So he just cried, and cried until his phone stopped with the text. It now was replaced with calls, from Jaemin.

Jeno wanted to answer and tell Jaemin he missed him too, and tell him that he loved him. However, he just couldn't, something was holding him back, and he knew just what it was. It was his demons, yelling in his head, saying the same things over and over. 'Your not enough' 'give up' 'you don't deserve him or happiness' 'you should die.'