HAPPINESS | NOMIN

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Sometimes you will never know

The value of a moment

Until it becomes a memory

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It was still raining, but Jaemin didn't care. He ran. He kept running, even though there's the slightest chance that Jeno will not be there. Even though Jeno might hate him. He kept running, because he's realized that Jeno needs him.

And he needs Jeno.

Ever since he saw Jeno in that hallway that one fateful day, everything changed. His perceptive of life, and how he sees things. He realized that he was never there for Jeno when Jeno needed him the most. The guilt has already washed him over like the rain was doing, like a flower being stepped on and nothing to prevent it. It's petals break, and then fall, to never get up again. Jaemin didn't want to be a flower, he wanted to be there for Jeno. He gave up on calling and texting because he knew Jeno would never pick up, so he just ran. He wasn't that far whenever he got a text, a text that would change his whole mission course.

Jeno🍑

I'm sorry Jaemin, I'm so sorry. For being a mess, for making you have so many difficulties in life. I never wanted this for you, I always wanted to see you happy. I wanted to see you smile and always jolly. But ever since I've entered your life you seem to be frustrated, and confused. I've never felt this way about anyone before, I've never felt this way at all. It scares me Jaemin. It does. And I know it scares you too. But please, forget the feeling. Forget me. Forget all the things we had together, just forget it. I know you will never say it back or feel it back, but I love you Jaemin. I love you so much that it hurts and breaks me down every damn day. And I cant do anything about it because I'm scared. I'm so scared. But I don't have to be scared anymore, you don't have to be confused anymore. Because I'm leaving, I'm leaving off this earth Jaemin. I don't want to be here anymore, and I don't want anyone else suffering because of me. Please forget me, don't come for me.

I love you Nana~ stay healthy and happy :)

And goodbye for good.

Jaemin was running, no he was flying. He was running faster than his body could handle but he didn't care. He had to see Jeno, no he had to save Jeno before he did anything. Then memories started to fall into place in his mind, like a puzzle being answered, and he recalled the first time he heard Jeno's laugh.