Shhhh... Don't tell him

Chapter 10

I break promises all the time so do not hold this against me when I disappear again because I might get an internship, but since summer break has finally started and the weight of uni has been lifted, I will try to update more and complete a couple of my works on here before summer ends. Priority goes to 'Babysitting the babysitter' though so check that one out too. 

Anyways, the long awaited chapter has finally arrived so enjoy the chapter. 

Comment what team you're on; Dana, Michel, Lillian or Jade. 

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Went I got home, I went straight up to my room and changed into different cloths. I wore a slightly long black t-shirt with white doddles all over, a pair or ripped jeans, white sneakers, then tired my hair up in a bun with lose strands in the front. I packed a jacket and my skating blades into my backpack, then slipped the bag on my shoulders.

I went to the ice rink; my grandpa owns the place, so I had the back-entrance key. My favorite thing about this place is when I walk in here in the morning, when I flip the lights on and the cold air hits me it makes me feel so peaceful. This is my safe place, the place where I can hide and shut everyone out, the place where I can shut off my brain and forget all the weight I carry on my shoulders. I usually stop here first every morning before school and go to work at the dinner after school.

I dropped my bag down on the bleachers in front of the rink, then went up-stairs to plug in my IPod and kept it on shuffle. I went back into the bleachers and wore my skater blades on. The second my skaters touched the ice, I felt the weight left off my shoulders. I skied around the place and sang along with the song.

I tried to enjoy every little moment of skating alone and being isolated, I knew the second I leave this place I'll have to face Lillian and Michel. I couldn't skip school forever and I couldn't hide forever as much as I wanted to. I slowly started to lose all my senses and thoughts as I buried myself in the lyrics of the song and the beat of it.

'Could I feel your skin on mine

Before I have to say goodbye

Could I breathe, please, one last time

You in my lungs before I curl up

And die

All my world is losin' light'

I couldn't help not to let those words burry themselves deep in my heart and get carved on my heart as I listened to them. Those words always hit me right in the feels. Not just those words, it was the whole song in general. It's like every emotional sad song about skinny love, unrequired loved and breakup songs hit me deep, because I knew I had to let my feelings of Diana go.

I didn't get it, I didn't get how I fell for him after all the shit we went though. He treated me like a sister, told me that we'd never in a million years date each other, told me that he can't settle down for one girl, is clearly open about being a player, and not even my type; so how the fuck did I end up having feelings for him despite all this shit that we went through.

I was nuts, nuts for feeling this way about him. If I keep my feelings for myself, I'll only hurt myself; If I tell him, he might freak out or just push it aside. Even if we ended up together by some miracle, I'll still get hurt because of over thinking and the certain possibility of him hurting me some way. I lose in all three options, which is exactly why I should just move on and forget him.

I was pulled back to reality when I saw a figure walking down the bleachers, I watch the figure approaching as I tried make out their figure. When he was finally close enough, the shinny lip ring and the messy brown hair gave it out. It was Michel, walking down the bleachers with a smile on his face. I skated across the ring to where he stood his black hair messy as always, was dressed in beige combat trousers, navy shirt with a darker shade of navy jacket on it, and black vans. He looked good.