Destiny's Call

Third

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Jeon Jungkook...

He seemed happy.
He seems healthy... and he's an idol now. He's finally living in his dreams.

They probably will have their first win soon with those talks going around among young women while I'm still stuck in a practice room with trainees all over the place.

"Yah! Jung Yein! Will you snap out of it? How many times do you plan on spacing out today? Who do you think you are to let your spirit wander around when everyone is already dying while practicing?"

My mind was taken back to reality when Mijoo-eonni nagged. Again. "S-sorry Mijoo eonni," I apologized immediately while bowing to the eonnis. Sigh. What the hell is going on with me? Ever since I saw Jungkook on the news, I've been acting stupid again. Agh. I shook my head and tried to focus. Snap out of this stupidity, Yein-ah. That was already ancient history.

The eonnis went back to practicing the dance that our choreographer taught us yesterday. I also pulled myself back and focused.

Mijoo eonni is the one supervising the practice since she's... well, except that she nags a lot, she's actually the best dancer that we have. Suited to oversee the practice.

"Aaaalright! Give ourselves a break! That was good everyone~ Not perfect but we're close," Mijoo eonni announced after clapping twice.

Everyone slumped on the floor chasing their breaths, inhaling and exhaling heavily.

"Wow, this dance will kill me!" Sujeong eonni exclaimed while panting and sweats dripping from her forehead.

"Exactly, ah... why is this dance so fast-paced?" Jiyeon eonni seconded while wiping her sweats off.

"I feel like my legs don't want to move anymore eonnideul~" Myungeun eonni complained while wobbling her knees to go near her bottled water which gained a few laughs from the others.

"You sure are lethargic, Myungeun-ah," Jisoo eonni pointed out while laughing at Myungeun eonni's lethargic expression.

They continued to talk amongst themselves and laughed but I didn't feel like joining in this time. I just continued to watch them from where I was sitting when Soojung eonni approached me and patted my head.

"What's bothering you Yein?" She asked in her soothing voice which made me feel like I was talking to my mother. She then sat beside me and joined me watching the other eonnis.

"Uhm..." What's bothering me? I don't know that well either. "I... I don't really know, eonni." I answered honestly and rested my head on my bended knees. "It's just that I.. I kept on thinking about something I should not be thinking anymore," my mind keeps on remembering his name, his voice, his face, his smiles, his laughter, his dreams, him. Jeon Jungkook.

"I'm getting frustrated in myself, but I just can't help it, I kept on remembering, reminiscing, and reliving those moments when I was still on it," why can't I ignore things that makes me remember him?

"It.. it hurts. Eonni, it hurts," I said in almost a whisper and buried my face on my knees when I felt my chest hurt.

I kept on mumbling words that I've been keeping for years. Just talking about it brings back memories that pounds my heart and breaks it into pieces, again. It drains everything that is in me, yet I can't stop myself from thinking about the memories he's in. What are you doing to me?

"Hmm.. seems like you're not yet ready to talk about it. You're still controlling your words. That'd be difficult to help," she said almost sighing. I looked at her when she put her hand on my shoulder and assured me of something. "But well, you're strong. You're our Jung Yein afterall. You can definitely surpass that," eonni cheered me up and smiled as she tapped my shoulder. "You can come to me if you decide to open up about it next time, okay?" Soojung eonni patted my head again. She's so reliable.

"Thank you, Soojung eonni," I can't help but to smile to eonni for her words and cheer but I can't also help but to sigh with how I was acting out. It was pathetic of me to lose myself just because of the memories from the past.

I inhaled deep and blew hard to free my pained little heart.

Gurae!

I am living today. I will live with my present life.

Yep. I'm Jung Yein anyway. No worries can beat the mighty Jung Yein! I cheered in my own mind. If this gets me down, it'll just prove my defeat against him. No, that cannot happen. Absolutely.

"Here," Jiae eonni handed me a bottled water from behind.

"Thanks eonni," I said while accepting it. She just gave me a smile and joined the others.

After 15 minutes, Mijoo eonni resumed the practice and killed us... nah, kidding. We just nearly ran out of breath since she becomes strict when it comes to supervising dance practices.

"Oy, Jung Yein-ah!" Someone called for my name when we went out of the practice room. We are going to the dormitory already since it's past 10 in the evening.

"Sungyoon oppa. Are you all going home too?" Since he came out with several company trainees from the other room, I bet he is really going home.

"Yep. So are you guys. Right?" He asked looking behind me where my eonnis were busy chattering all over the place.

"Yes we are," I said while nodding and looking at my eonnis.

"Sungyoon hyung, let's go! I'm hungry," one of the guys called him. It was probably Jangjun oppa. He's loud. For real. He's Sujeong eonni's classmate in the academy actually. They're friends. Talented friends. Sungyoon oppa also told me that they're few of the trainees with the longest training periods here. They probably know each other so well.

"Oh, well, see you around," Sungyoon oppa waved goodbye while grinning wide and showing his bunny teeth as he ran towards his friends.

I bowed to him and went back to where my eonnis were.

Bunny teeth?

Come to think of it, Sungyoon oppa kinda resembles Jeon Jungkook. The bunny teeth that they both have, and slightly on the nose, maybe? I just noticed that right now. It did not come to my mind since I came to know Sungyoon oppa, and even when we were on the restaurant yesterday.

I stilled for a moment and nearly face-palmed myself when I realized what I did.

Heh. Jungkook again?

Old habits surely die hard.

He's not your priority anymore. Okay? Stop thinking about him.

I shook my head and erased his face in my mind. This is seriously not a good habit, Jung Yein.

I spent most of my time thinking for his sake before that I made him my top priority which made me think of him first whenever I do something.

And in the end... well, it ended not so well.

A bitter smile escaped my lips before I knew it. My heart beat me up again, it hurts. Thinking about how I was not considered a part of his life even before still hurts. Well, that's Jeon Jungkook for you Jung Yein.

'You need to wake up.' Heh. Oh, shut up, Jeon Jungkook. I know it already. You don't need to remind me.

I'm wide awake. I know that you are already happy after what you've done. You are already successful. You are already what you wanted. You are now an idol. You are now a strength of many. You are their smiles. You are now living in your dreams.

Dreams, huh?

I blew my bangs and a lop-sided grin crossed my face when I suddenly remembered his words, 'you need to wake up'.

Old habits die hard, my ass. You, need to wake up.

Wait for me, I'll barge in your dreams instead.