No matter how strong I have always portrayed myself when it comes to the daylight, somehow I feel like I cant keep holding on to the pain people has been inflicting on me. At times, a joke doesn't really feel like a joke anymore. Nothing really makes you laugh and all you got to do is to just pretend that you are happy around people. The things that make me smile are the effort people around me checks on my wellbeing, emotionally and those who can talk to you whenever times get hard.
Well, I have a best friend, Sierra, who knew I have such issues and she has always been there to support me and check on me from time to time. It's not an everyday thing but I have always appreciated the effort she takes for me. I do tell her things but as I mention, not all because I felt she wouldn't understand how it can feel. I am thankful I have her in my life and she never gives up on me. Sometimes I wish I had her life. I always want to be like an ordinary girl who doesn't face such issues but it just had to be me. I have to endure all of this because I am the reason for everything that started.
I pray no one else to have to experience the same thing I am experiencing because my esteem itself is enough to pull me down. I hated myself day by day knowing this was going to haunt me. I need to fix myself bit by bit. I never want to give up. I want to do this for myself. I keep myself going daily with the support I am getting from my boyfriend, Stanley, and my best friend.
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Sleepless Nights
RandomAlexis Jackson was a young , lively and confident girl during the daylight , yet she only knew how broken , lost and depressed she was at night. Knowing , it was reality she couldnt wake up feeling normal but all she could hope was to end the night...
