The past stays the past and i wish her the best in whatever she is up to.
I have been quiet these days, i dont enjoy anything and nothing seems fun.
Its painful to know i can never feel the same i felt. It's a scar and it's stuck in my head. Choiceless. Whatever happen right in my eyes stay the way it is . I want to end this pain. i hate knowing i have to sleep with this voices in my head. Im honestly tired , i have no strength to run this anymore. I am stuck no way out. Why do i have to run this way and make myself this way.
I hate this pain on myself. I am hurting myself and i know i cant ever get over this. My heart feel painful real pain. the pain where, your heart feels so unsettled and not able to beat the right way. I wish it just stopped right away. Its hitting me again and again. It feels like a stab into my heart. Like a thousand times yet im still alive. Why do i have to go through this.. I can never feel happy and its just not happening to me.
My heart beats feels so irregular and beating oddly. Isit cause i am too much in pain. I really hope everyday would be my last day. This really suck .. It was not my day , I just had to take all the blames and deal with it. No one helped me and i know no one can.
Cause I dont want to burden anyone and no one actually cares.. Well, if I can experience this pain by myself because the people around me made me felt this way , whats the point to turning to the ones who made it happen ? Honestly im tired of taking every blames, i cant do it anymore.
I had enough , you feel me ? I am just sad, really really really sad.
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Sleepless Nights
RandomAlexis Jackson was a young , lively and confident girl during the daylight , yet she only knew how broken , lost and depressed she was at night. Knowing , it was reality she couldnt wake up feeling normal but all she could hope was to end the night...
