I wish i didnt trusted her and kept some things to myself. It was harsh on me when someone who was close to me used my weakness on me .
One thing i knew no matter how many times i said i wont trust anyone i know i will trust again and again . No matter how much hurt it can actually get . I can admit, i asked for it . It was my fault for trusting someone who backstabbed me not once, not twice too. Many times yet, i gave her chance. Hoping that one day she will change. Eventually, she played with my weakness.
I felt so upset ever since , i just wanted to forget this pain and therefore we ended terms mutally. As much as i didnt wanted to end this , i just had to , because it was toxic to me. I want to forget this yet it never stops , such terrible memories haunt me at the oddest hour. Alone and left out. I always felt that way. No matter how many people were around me , i always felt alone. Always.
Feeling it this way totally sucks, no one really feel how i feel. I cant explain how i feel in detail , i only can tell how i feel in the simplest word i can tell . Life gets hard, always. Hitting me when i dont know what i did to deserve it. That was one of my lowest point of time . I want to get it over and done with .
This kind of affected me for quite some time but i feel that as time past i will get used to it.
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Sleepless Nights
RandomAlexis Jackson was a young , lively and confident girl during the daylight , yet she only knew how broken , lost and depressed she was at night. Knowing , it was reality she couldnt wake up feeling normal but all she could hope was to end the night...
