I hate you, I love you - Simbar (Completed)

Part 19

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Simón's POV
We kiss between tears and smiles, the happiness, relieve and hope expressed in every movement and reaction.

I back away a little, the air making itself necessary. I open my eyes and stare right at hers, the most beautiful pair I have ever seen, who are now brightest then ever due to the tears they have been shedding. And even though I am crying as well I cannot stand the fact that she is crying and somehow because of me.

I frame her delicate face with my hands and she does the same with mine. We caress each other's cheeks, wiping away the tears. She opens her mouth to say something but I shush her, pulling Ámbar for a hug instead.
It feels great to have her like this again. To finally hold her knowing that she isn't keeping lies from me. To hold Ámbar, the real Ámbar.
God knows how many times I have wanted to do this for the past few months...

"You could have done it, you know..." She whispers and I realize I said it out loud. "Instead of being 24/7 following Luna it would have been nice to have some support myself..."
"I am sorry... It was..."
"I know, complicated." She finishes separating herself from me. "I didn't exactly help out as well... But I just couldn't stand being with those people and all that it meant: that I wasn't Sol Benson, Alfredo wasn't my grandfather but Luna's, while I was completely alone.
I was so angry at the world, with Luna, the Valente, my grandfather, Sharon, you and even with me. And honestly I still am. Because even if I want I cannot change with a snap of a finger. It will take time and patience..."

"And I will be there to walk you through it!" I promise, holding her hands between mine. She gives me a smile, one of those that I love and which she doesn't show that often.
"I do really really hope you do, Simón. Otherwise, well I don't even know... I guess things can get worse than this but I truly hope they don't...
I think you already understood it's hard for me to express and talk about my feelings and all that I am experiencing. I was raised this way, being told not to show weaknesses, not let emotions cloud my judgment. I had to be perfect and for that you have to give up a lot.
I had realized that before and to this day am learning that every choice we make will have a consequence in the future. And hiding what was inside of me for so long, was one of the worst things that I ever did to myself and to others as well.

So, Simón, again I am trusting you with something that is new to me. I am opening my heart to you, maybe letting you get back in it again. You are the good guy, don't ruin this! In return I promise I will do everything that I can as the bad girl to improve.
However, I want to make things very very clear. I might change, I might turn into someone less... evil and dark, but I won't lose my essence. You won't get a Luna at the end of this process..."

"Who said I wanted a Luna?" I ask raising my eyebrow at how silly her sentence was.
"Well, you spend basically all the time with her, it's clear that you really like her and want her..."
"As a friend! I want her as a friend, Ámbar!" I exclaim chuckling, gaining a typical fulminant Ámbar look in return. "Sorry for laughing but you are being so silly. I don't want Luna as anything else than a friend, bestfriend actually. She means a lot to me and yes I have had feelings for her but those were naive and confused.

Now if you ask me what I want the answer will be you, Ámbar. But you as you are, the true and genuine girl I got to meet and which you said not everyone could get to know. Well I want to know her. Everything about her, whether it's good or bad, because otherwise it wouldn't be you. I want you with your perfectionism and amazing talent as much as your indecision and sarcasm. That's what defines you. So don't worry, I will help you with whatever I can and you need but at the end all I want is my bonita."
I tell her all of this in the attempt of helping her get rid of such silly doubts. She looks at me with a special spark in her eyes and I know it's not from the tears, it's the meaning my words have to her, someone who was not too familiar with love.

"I love it when you call me like that..." She confesses, looking down for a second almost as if she was embarrassed. It was really cute to watch. I take her left hand to my lips leaving another kiss there.
"I know you do..." I whisper next to her ear making her shiver.
"And I am really glad to know you don't want Luna..."
I chuckle again and she rolls her eyes. "What? You thought I wanted Benicio..."
My face turns serious as well and then we both laugh at how stupid this whole situation is.

"I guess we can both agree we are jealous fools..."
"Yes... Though I have to watch you with Luna all the time and you haven't seen Benicio in months..."
"You kissed..."
"And you kissed Luna as well!"
"Okay okay... Fair enough... But even of Emilia I was a bit jealous I have to confess..."
"What! Why?"
"Because she could bring a smile to your face when I couldn't..."

"Oiwnn... You really are so cute... I just can't!" She squeezes my cheeks and I feel myself blush on that area. I scratch the back of my head taken aback.
"I think she will like that. Oh and for your own good you should keep your promise this time..." She warns casually, shrugging her shoulders.
I again take her face between my hands, and state serious: "I will keep it. Not for fear of her or anything like that. But because now that we are sorting things, I cannot lose you again."
She replies with a triumphant smile and I am about to pull her for a kiss when my phone starts ringing.