ZARA

Inside, I'm dying

Friday, May 24
Hey, it's the last day of school! Finally! It literally felt like a decade! It's been a rough year but it's over. I know everyone is going to stare at me but I'm not bothered, I wasted too much of my life being bothered. On that note, see you guys at school!

"Damn Zara, back at it agai-"
We're not doing that again
"Okay, well I tried"
Can you believe it's the last day!
"I'm so happy! I'm going to Amsterdam, where are you going?"
You know me, probably the Bali or the Bahamas.
"Really!"
Nope, I'm going to be sitting at home all summer, just like every year.
"That's a shame. I've got an idea. Why don't you come with us"
No, not a chance!
"But why!"
This your holiday, besides, you see me every day, spend some time with your family.
"Okay then, but I'll try to FaceTime you as much as I can"
It's okay, Maddie, live in the moment and it's not like we're not going to see each other.
"Yeah I know but, I'm gonna miss you a lot!"
I'm gonna miss you too!

BRRING!

Well, there goes the bell, The race to the finish line is over!
"Yay for that!"
I'll see you in high school!
"See you, remember to text me! Byeeee!"
Bye!

The last walk home is going to be nostalgic, I forgot to mention that we're moving houses, somewhere with a lot less history. My Mom really is craving that fresh start. Nobody stared at my hairless head, they feel bad for me. But that's the last thing I want, pity.
Also, Lilly came up to me and said sorry and she said she was really grateful for the scholarship. That's the first conversation, we've ever had literally. Zack hasn't come into school ever since Samantha got expelled- I think I heard something. HELLO! IT'S NOT FUNNY!

"You're right it's not"
Samantha? who are all these people?
Aaah!
"Doesn't feel nice, does it!"
Samantha, what are you doing?!
"I ask the questions!"
Please just let me go!
"Like I'm going to do that!"
"Samantha... put the bat down, we can talk about this"
"TALK! After all, I've been through! You want me to talk it out!"
Aaaaahhhh!
"WHAT DID YOU SAY TO ME! I'M DOWN IN THE DUMPS. WELL, YOU'RE WRONG. SAMANTHA, IS NEVER DOWN IN THE DUMPS!"
"OWW! Samantha, please stop! You're hurting my leg!"
"HURTING YOU! THAT'S NOT THE MOST I'M GOING TO DO TO YOU! You self-centered bitch, you took EVERYTHING away from me! FIRST YOU GOT ME EXPELLED, THEN YOU GAVE MY SCHOLARSHIP AWAY AND NOW LILLY HATES ME! ZACK HATES ME & MY PARENTS DON'T LOOK AT ME!"
Look I'm sorry!
"SORRY? I DON'T NEED A SORRY"
NO! SAMANTHA, DON'T HIT ME! AAH!
"YOU'RE SO FUCKING ANNOYING! WHY DON'T YOU JUST KILL YOUR SELF!"
pleeease... I can't breathe!
"I'M FINISHED, WITH YOU! AND DON'T YOU EVER, AND I MEAN EVER! MESS WITH ME AGAIN! WE'LL BE SEEING A LOT OF EACH OTHER, AFTER ALL, I DON'T  HAVE MY SCHOLARSHIP ANYMORE!

OH MY GOD, MY LEG! I can't breathe! Why does this keep happening to me? I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE! I HAVE TO GET HOME

"ZARA!"
"ZARA, WHERE ARE YOU GOING"

.......
"ZARA, OPEN THE DOOR!"
MOM, GO AWAY!
SAMANTHA'S RIGHT... I'm done... I'm done.
"Zara, listen Theo's here, listen to him!"
"Zara, don't do anything stupid, open the door!"
No, no, No! You have to let me do this!
"Zara, Yor Dad's here talk to him!"
"Zara, I don't know what's happened, don't leave us like this, open the door."
I'm a waste .... of .... space...... I don't want to live, Dad, I don't. Yes, I'm smiling, but inside I'm dying!
"You are not a waste of space, are you listening to me, I love you, please open the door."
"I'm sorry for everything I've done,"
"Zara, stand back, I'm pushing the door in.1! 2! 3!"
"Zara, don't ever scare me like that again!"
Mom, what's wrong with me?
"Nothing is wrong with you,listen to me, nothing is wrong with you!"
Mom, I need help ..... I .... can't do this...... I need help.....
"I know, I know, I'm going to do everything to help you. Don't do this ever again."
You have your whole life ahead of you, if you left me, your brother, your Dad, how do you think we're going to feel, Zara, we all love you! Don't you dare do anything like this again."

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