ZARA

I have no choice, you do.

Tuesday, May 28
My first day of therapy... I'm ready. I don't know what to think anymore. Life just feels at a standstill right now.-
"Are you ready to go?"
Yep
"Come on then"
Theo, what are you actually thinking?
"I'm thinking, that this is all my fault."
It wasn't because of you...Theo don't blame yourself. There's a lot of things that I can't control anymore. I don't know what to do...
"Hey, I know after everything that's happened, you're still hurting, I don't want you to explain yourself, that's now what I want. You're not in trouble. We all love you, we are going to do everything to help you that we failed to do before. Above everything, our priority is you. We're taking every step together now. Are you ready?"
Yeah.

1 hour later

Therapy is over! It was really good. I got a lot of things off my chest and I'm really happy with the progress I've made in one session. I'm Theo is talking to the lady right now while I'm waiting in the waiting room by my self... Okay so maybe I'm not alone. Is anyone there?
"..... hey"
Hi.
"Wait, are you that girl from the viral video, the one that got glue-"
On her head... unfortunately, yeah, that's me.
"I felt really bad for you,"
You don't need to feel bad, I've already done that enough my self, I'm sorry about your-
"Cancer, yeah, I get that a lot."
What cancer is it?
"Leukaemia..."
How old are you?
"13"
But you're my age. I can't imagine me going through something like that.
"I keep living normally, I don't think about it. That's why I come to therapy. I need to think about how I can live my life to the fullest excluding everything bad in my life."
You're really strong.
"I have to be... why are you here?"
Umm...
"It's okay, I'm in no place to judge. You don't have to tell me"
No, it's fine, I'm here because... let's just say life left me wanting less"
"Really? Do you want some advice"
Sure, I think I need it anyway.
"I've met so many people here at therapy and they've all had a reason to be here and many are like you but some don't make it. I've had to say goodbye to many people, I know someday they'll have to say goodbye to me too. I don't somebody to pity me, all I want is to be normal but have cancer completely takes that away. I have no choice, you do. Thousands of people want a second chance to live but they can't, you can. Live for those people.
Wow... sorry I don't want to cry,
"It's okay to cry, we can't be happy all the time. By the way, I'm Ali."
Nice to meet you, I'm Zara.
"Alison Cooper, we're ready for you"
Oh, Ali, can I have your number?
"Sure. Give me your phone..........there done. Bye Zara, it was nice to meet you."
Bye!
"You made a friend."
Jealous, Theo?
"Nope, As you know I am Mr popular, I have many mates,"
Haha, mates. Why are you looking at me like that?
"No reason, just... keep smiling"
Okay?
"Now come on, we need to go home before the traffic starts."

2 Hours later
Hey, it's been a while. I'm at my Dad's house now while Mom and Theo are packing up boxes and what not. I feel so grateful to be alive. I was about to make the biggest mistake of my life. I forgot that there are so many people that want to live and I'm taking it for granted. Well not anymore. I'm going to make the most out of everything, starting now. I'm not going to waste away and become a statistic.

IT'S TIME FOR A REAL CHANGE...