𝐁𝐀𝐃 𝐂𝐇𝐎𝐈𝐂𝐄𝐒; 𝘑𝘠𝘈𝘛𝘛

ch. 7

sophia woke up at around 6 in the morning. she never slept in, unlike jaeden. she laid there, staring at the ceiling as she waited for jaeden to wake up. she knew he didn't get much sleep so she didn't want to disturb him. she glanced around his room, taking in everything. her eyes landed on a small piece of metal on his desk. it had from what it looked like a few drops of blood on it, causing sophia's heart to sink. she wasn't sure, but she thought she might know what it was. she turned towards jaeden, who was still fast asleep. she knew it was his personal problem and she was violating his privacy, well that's how she thought of it, but she was worried. she didn't want jaeden to be harming himself. she lifted his sleeve and gasped softly. her eyes welled up with tears. it was true. then she saw something purple mixed with brown and yellow. she bit her lip and rolled his sleeve up at bit more, then saw a large handprint. a lump formed in her throat. she didn't know who hurt him, but she sure as hell was going to find out and beat the crap out of them. jaeden turned slightly and mumbled something. she remembered he was a light sleeper, so she could be waking him up. she stopped moving and so did he.

after about a few hours of sophia falling asleep and waking up repeatedly, jaeden's eyes fluttered open and the sun blinded him temporarily. he realised sophia was still there, and she was sleeping to his surprise.

"what time is it?" he mumbled and grabbed his phone next to his bed. it read, '11:23'.

'3 new messages from 'olaf''

'16 new messages from 'garbage''

'2 new messages from 'sadie :))''

he opened wyatt's texts first.

-imessage conversation-
-wyatt & jaeden-

olaf: hello
olaf: ur probably asleep right now but i couldn't wait to tell u any longer!!
olaf: i'm going to los angeles!
read 11:23

jaeden: omg!! does that mean u can visit me? why are u coming?
delivered

-imessage conversation-
-sadie & jaeden-

sadie: hey
sadie: are u busy this afternoon? :)
read 11:24

jaeden: not really sure. i'll tell u later x
delivered

he ignored the groupchat conversation because it's usually filled with either arguments about some stupid shit, weirdness, or kinky daddy stuff and he wasn't prepared to read that, especially when he just woke up. he felt something poke at his shoulder and he jumped slightly, startled. he faced sophia and smiled, "good morning."

"morning," she whispered, obvious that there was something wrong. "um, you know i care about you, right?"

"yeah, of course. why?"

"i just... i don't want you to... hurt yourself. if you know what i mean," sophia fiddled with her fingers anxiously.

"y-you don't have to um wor-worry about any of that kinda of s-stuff." jaeden wanted to scream at himself for allowing his stutter to interfere, making him look like he was lying. which he was.

"jaeden, i-" she cut herself off, not wanting to actually say the words out loud.

"what's wrong, soph?"

"i saw the um, the razor."

jaeden felt himself stiffen, "what-what razor?"

"don't bullshit me, jaeden. i saw your arms, too. you have bruises? who the fuck did that to you? why didn't you tell me? what, you didn't trust me? are you at least getting help?" sophia suddenly felt herself get mad at jaeden for doing this to himself. "am i gonna get an explanation or are you just gonna stare at me?"

"i'm-i'm sorry sophia, i w-was scared. i did-didn't mean-"

"i tell you everything. everything, jaeden. and what do i get told? nothing. you just feed me with your ridiculous lies, 'oh, i'm fine' every fucking day. i can't believe you didn't tell me about something like this!" she schnapped. (wrong time? okay)

"i di-didn't want you to worry!"

"well shit, jaeden! you didn't think someone was going to find out soon anyway?"

"my dad already fucking found out! i don't need another person scream at me for being weak, alright? now if you're gonna continue to yell at me, then leave!" jaeden's eyes glossed over. everything was going so well before she brought it up.

"i'm just angry at you because i'm mad you never told me! you knew i wouldn't judge you for it! you aren't fucking weak, jaeden! it's just-i would've been able to help you!"

"y-y-you can't he-help me, sophia! now j-just leave me al-lone," jaeden lowered his tone as tears threatened to fall from his eyes.

"jaeden, please talk to me-"

"leave me alone!" he cut her off. she stared at him then shook her head, "no. there is no way that i'm leaving you after i found out about this. this isn't good for you, jaeden. i know i seem like bitch right now but it's only because i care. i'm upset you would do something like this."

"i know, i-i know. but i j-just want to be b-by myself. plea-please."

"okay, i understand. but please call me if you ever feel like hurting yourself. i don't care if it's 3 in the morning, promise you'll call me."

"i promise." (mileven vibes)

sophia hugged him. he slowly slid his arms under hers and dug his head into her shoulder. they sat like that for a while, before sophia pulled away, "i-i'll go home now." jaeden nodded and looked down at his hands.

"um, i also want an explanation on the handprint on your arm later," sophia whispered and walked to the window. she climbed outside after giving jaeden a small smile, and went to her house. silence consumed his room. the only sound was his ragged breathing.

god, how he hated life.