Chapter 15
Amaya's POV
I've been trying everything possible to revive my spirit; talking to myself, talking to my wolf, meditating, and trying to contact Nevaeh, but nothing works. I don't know how long I've been here because the light from the sky never ceases and I never get tired or hungry. It's like I just keep living without having any needs whatsoever for normal survival.
I remember listening to conversations and stories from members of my pack talking about how many times that a mate leaves or rejects their mate, their spirit will die along with them. Rarely do they survive without their spirit, so I guess I'm just one of the lucky ones. Back then I thought all of it was nonsense and had nothing to do with me so I didn't pay much attention. I realise now that that was a HUGE mistake. They even talked about how to get your spirit back, but by then I had almost totally tuned them out because it was just a bore to me. If I had listened correctly I wouldn't be in this mess...
I laid in the tall green grass beside my wolf, deep in thought. I reached to my right to gently pat her fur as she whined in defeat. I sat up abrubtly and cursed. Why can't I do this? It shouldn't be this hard! I thought in my head, my anger and frustration building. I've been trying and trying for who knows how long to revive my freaking spirit, but NOTHING is working. I walked over to a huge rock that jutted from the soil and punched it with all my strength, feeling no pain. Right as my fist connected with the rock, I felt a small surge of power run through my body. It was there and gone so fast that I wasn't sure if I even felt it. I didn't take much thought to it as my anger began to get the best of me, causing me to bash the boulder again, making a deafening cracking sound as a long crack spread up the rock. I smirked and punched it again, cursing Remi for this in my mind.
Stupid... Worthless... Selfish... Mate...
I thought in between blows to the cracking and splitting boulder. I only stopped when it was nothing but rubble in the soil. I turned to look at my wolf to see her looking at me sadly, almost pitying me. I don't want to be pitied, I want to be the one pitying others. I'm no longer going to be the sensitive, weak girl I once was. I'm not going to let others run my life, especially someone like Remi. I scrunched up my nose at the thought of him. He no longer appealed to me; he almost disgusted me. I can't believe I let him have this effect on me. I was so weak, so useless.
I balled up my fists and began to tremble, feeling my anger get the better of me. I've never had much of a temper before, but now I couldn't even control it. I closed my eyes as my whole body grew hotter while it trembled with pure rage. My skin seemed to be crawling all over my body, trying to let something in.
I will NEVER be that girl again, I swore to myself. I felt my canines extending and my eyes burning, and when I finally opened my eyes to glare infront of me I seen a black and white wolf staring directly at me with piercing red eyes. It had on what looked like a huge... Smile? Its long canines protruding from its mouth. I didn't have long to think about it as it suddenly ran directly at me, snarling with fangs like razors before leaping at me. Then everything went black.
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Alec's POV
Ever since I met Laila I had spent almost every moment with her. There were times when she had to return to her pack for a while, but the bond we had developed over these past couple months was strong and it made it impossible for us to be apart for too long. Every time I held her, seen her, smelled her, all I wanted to do was mark her, claiming her as mine. The only thing that stopped me was the thought of letting my pack down. I couldn't be a good Alpha if I let my pack down before even becoming one. It broke my heart having to hold back from making her mine forever, and I could tell it hurt her too. We had talked about it and I explained everything to her, in which she was very understanding with. I was so proud of her being my mate that I wanted to show her to the world and scream it at the top of my lungs.
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The Rogue's Deceit
Hombres LoboAll Amaya wanted was to have a simple life. Find her mate, fall in love, and live happily ever after. Although that will never happen because she is 'destined' to mate with her future alpha and best friend, Alec; despite not being true mates. It too...