The Sun's Binary star( Continuation Of High School Diary Of Kongpob) Completed

Chapter 13

Arthit pov

I stood there and watched him walk away and April was following him. She was right I was coward not only I was coward I was selfish too. I would have felt happy if he slapped me or cursed me but he smiled just smiled. It hurts a lot. I don't want to hurt Nam. Though she don't spend time with me often I know she loves me. I cannot hurt her. I was holding the gift he gave to me. It was a glass cube with me and Nam picture in it. Seeing that I was not able to hold my tears. I hurt him really bad this time. I don't want to justify my action. I know I was not good for him. When I read his diary. I want to shout that I love him but I cannot. He shakes me everytime I see him.

I still remember the shy Kong who put up a mask and act cold and act like he don't care in front of other but deep in my heart I know he hurt a lot and yet he never shows it to anyone. I know I shout not have shout at him I know I don't deserve him. When he confessed to me why not an hour earlier that what came to my mind. He confessed to me the same time when Nam accepted  my proposal if it was an hour earlier I would have been with him now. I was a coward back in the school days. I likes him so much. First I was afraid what if he rejected me. Then I thought what will others think about me then it was I don't want to spoil my studies and after that I don't want to spoil hos studies. I gave every excuse possible to stay away from him. Yes I was a coward who has no courage to accept my feelings.

I know how stubborn he is. I know he will text me again and again until I give a reply to him. I don't want to reply to him I was afraid that if I say something he will get mad at me. In all this year he asked me only one thing do not ignore him but I kept ignoring him. I often had called him from different number just to hear his voice. I missed him so much but it is really time for him to move on. I don't deserve the love from him he deserves someone who is much better. Someone who treasure him a lot not someone like me who treated him like a trash. I don't deserve his love.i don't deserve him.

Before letting him go I just want to see him. So I followed her and when I saw her she kissed him and Kong responded to her and it hurts, hurts like something is squeeze my heart and my throat hurts may be it's me who thought he still love me may be he moved on already. Maybe that's the reason he never wrote anything on the diary again. Maybe he decided to let me go long ago and sees me only as friend. Yes Kong you deserve someone better, not me. Just stay happy. I want him to be happy but why my eyes are wet?