The Sun's Binary star( Continuation Of High School Diary Of Kongpob) Completed

Chapter 16

Arthit pov

Right now, I am waiting in the classroom for him to show up. When I saw the girl with kong I want to rip her into pieces. What is he thinking? I didn’t leave him to see him like this. I don’t know what he is thinking few days before he was acting like I was everything to him in his life. Now he is making out in the middle of the day right in front of me and that attitude of him. If not in class I would have been ended up in hell a lot of fight. But do I have the right to fight with him after all the things that happened between us?

Yes, I want him to move away from me but am I ready to see him with someone else? Yes, I know that I should be happy that he is with someone else but why I feel my heart hurt and why do I feel angry every time he chooses someone else other than me. Is he really not more than a friend to me? Or still do I feel something more than that? Feeling possessive on friends is something normal right? I have always felt possessive and protective on him but it has been like that from the beginning of the time.

I still remember how I met him in the music club. He was so grumpy when he was climbing the stairs and I can say that he looked so cute with that pouting lips of his but when he saw me a small smile appeared on the corner of his lips and he saw me like how a fan sees his idol and I felt like something crushing in my heart and I felt happy that he idolizes me. I know his gaze followed me wherever I moved in that area. I know that he didn’t even realize that the bell rang. When we were in the drums room my friends were making fun of him and yes I joined them because he looked like he is so closed up and never open up I have never blamed that but I want him to come out of his bubble so kept pushing him to the extend that he snap.

I never knew that he listened to all my conversation with my friends. I know I was badmouthing him but I also had the feel that I must protect him and every time when I tried to be good to him he showed me the attitude and I also started to tease him at every chance I get. I really liked seeing his angry red face. But when I think about all the things that happened now I cannot help but smile. I have spent lot of my free time with him and we also had a lot of beautiful memories.

I still know why we are like this now. I asked him the question that do you love me? And at the same time, I also said to him that I am in love with someone else. Actually, the part about Nam was clearly made up one. I liked him a lot and I didn’t have the courage to say it out loud. I was afraid that he will reject me so I made up the character. I know that he liked me but I don’t know how he saw me so I cooked up a name called Nam and used that name to stir the jealously in him. I thought that if I push him a little he will say that he likes me. So, I said to him and talked about that girl to him saying that I feel butterflies flies in my stomach whenever I see her and also said that I don’t know how I feel about her. Damn it I want him to be jealous and say that he likes me and I want him to be possessive on me like how I was on him but he kept questioning me how I felt about her and what she talked with me. He was acting like me falling with someone else make him happy that was the silliest move in my entire life.

I met Nam only after I fought with Kong and she was there for me when he kept hurting me repeatedly. He hurt me when I needed him the most. It was when I started to fall for her. Actually, that’s what I thought but if I think about it now. I have not felt possessive on her neither I feel protective of her. I don’t feel like talking with her all the time. I just don’t feel the spark with her. She doesn’t drive me crazy like the him. Maybe did I mistake my feeling as love for her. When kong was not there talking with her made me to forget about him. So I craved for her company but once I became busy I am fine with not talking with her all the time. I don’t know what is happening with me. I thought that I am over kong. I thought I don’t see him more than a friend but damnit when I saw him again I felt like a teenager again and every time that girl pull him away from me I really wanted to say that he is mine and don’t touch him. Is it I never stopped loving him all this time?

Why did not I have the courage to say that I liked him. If I have said that he would have been with me. He would have been making out with me and not someone else. He would have been following me like a lost puppy and he would have still seen me like I am his entire world. I messed up everything seeing him again I want to go to our old times and want to stay in that bubble.

"Sir" he called and knocked at the door before entering the class. From when he started to call me sir?