The Sun's Binary star( Continuation Of High School Diary Of Kongpob) Completed

Chapter 23

Arthit pov

"Kong we need to talk" I said to him. I will make him listen. I have to do it. I am not going to lose him again and live with guilt through out my life.

"Where is April?" He asked me. Well actually he was pretending like he didn't hear me speak. No issues. If he is stubborn, I am more stubborn than him.

"April has gone out she won't be coming until tomorrow night. Now will you please listen to me?" If I have to beg him then yes I will.

"We have nothing to talk Arthit you already made yourself clear. I am not your toy Arthit so that you can play and throw when you want it"

"I can understand your anger Kong but please listen to me. I won't ask you anything more than this just 5 minutes of your time. That's all I ask you please "

"Why should I listen to you Arthit? Did you listen to me when I begged you? I practically begged you for 6 years not once where you willing to attend  my call. You was not even willing to reply to my text. You said that I am annoying you. You said I hate you. I accepted everything did not I?  to be worse you said that you feel like you are cheating on your girlfriend. Are you not feeling like you are cheating on your girlfriend now?what made you change. I will never be anyone second choice Arthit and no I am not willing to listen to you. Don't say that you fell in love with after all the things you said to me. If you say that you fell now let me clear the things it's not love you are just feeling guilty that you hurt me. Now let me clarify it to you I am not hurt and you don't have to feel guilty for it after this I will make sure that I will never cross the path with you ever again.you don't have to take the pain. I will go. You don't have to push me away " he said and tears were rolling down his cheeks so were mine.

"I love you kong" I yelled at him before I lose my courage again. "Not now I have always loved you. It was you who were ready to let me go. It's you who was ready to let me go even without a fight. When I said that I love Nam it was you who had my heart. I wanted you to fight with me. I wanted you to say that you like me. You love me. You were never a second choice to me. It was you who ignored me. Did I not beg you to talk with me. Did not I say that I miss you so much. Did not I begged you to talk with me a little more time. You showed your cold shoulders. You were not ready to listen. If you have attended the call once just once before I came here we will not be in this position now. I accepted Nam proposal just a second before boarding the flight. I loved you. I felt like cheating her because I was in love with you all the time. I loved you I love you and I will always do that's what I understood in these 5 years after being away from you for so long thought that I have moved away from you. I thought I can lead a life without you after all this years you came again and acted as if you moved on and you were acting like April was your everything. You acted like she was your priority and you know how I felt I felt like my world broke. Yes I was confused about my feeling but I was not ready to let you go. I was ready to let her go but not you. To the add fuel you gave me a birthday present with me and her in the picture I saw you I  the photo shop when you gave the picture. I was so mad that is why I shouted at you. You say that you love me but how can you let me go as if I matter nothing to you. Yes I accept that I treated you badly. Yes I hurt you so much. Yes I broke  all the promise I made to you. Yes I ignored you  for many years but no matter what I did I loved you I always did. I know I cannot turn back time. I know I damaged you a lot but do not say I love you because of guilt. I accept that I am coward. I had no courage to say that I love you. But I am saying it to you now I love you. I love only you. If not I would not have saved my first kiss for you. I am sorry I really am but I love. Now you can do what you want to do if you don't want me to stay in front of you I will leave. You don't have to take the pain. I have already caused you enough"

"I am afraid."

"What are you afraid for?"

"I am afraid that you will leave me again. If that happens I don't think...... I will die. If you leave me I definitely will"

When he said it I was not able to control my tears fresh drops came from my eyes. I know I hurt him a lot but I never thought I hurt him this much.

"Lest get married" I said to him.

"Huh?"

"I am serious kong let us get married. If that will make you fear less about me leaving you then we can do it now. Let us get married I am serious.i am not going to let you go ever again whether you accept it or not"

"OK let get married"