The Sun's Binary star( Continuation Of High School Diary Of Kongpob) Completed

Chapter 17

Arthit pov

I never saw Kong in my class after that. I understood that he is avoiding me with all the might he has. I really screwed it this time. There is no way he will come to me. I miss him.  If I have not seen him then I would not have felt anything but seeing him made me to bring all the old emotions and feeling that I have bottled up. I don't know I can survive it this time.

Mr and Miss competition is going on. To say exactly it was like beauty pageant mostly two rounds will be there. I heard that the Master science Miss and Mr is cute and Handsome. I don't know who all enrolled for the competition. I just have no interest in those. If my Co workers have not pushed me I would not have gone my mind is already filled with so much and I have no interest in seeing cute girls or boys. I just want to see Kong at least from far. I miss him not only him I have not seen April too. I know if I want to see Kong have to search for April. Well I didn't find him anyway.

It was the loud noise from the audience made me snap from my thoughts. The tango music was playing and the spot light was directed at them. The guy was wearing a white shirt with very low v neck  the material was silky lace and it showed his chiseled chest clearly. The guy and the girl was both wearing a mask and girl was hugging the guy from behind. When the music began the spot light hit on them. They both danced so well it was like they both wanted so much to be in each other arms. The guy push the girl away by one arms and reaching her again with another. It was like they want to away from each other but at the same time they cannot be the without each other.  The entire auditorium was silent and everyone was mesmerised by the way their body moves to the music.

It was in the certain music the mask was thrown away and I felt like my heart broke it was Kong.  A felt some strange emotions rip my heart up and every touch he give to that girl was very clearly seen to me like someone is zooming his hands on the girls. I don't enjoy the dance anymore I wanted to pull that girl him and everytime he touch her it was like a part of me push them both away. He is mine. I cannot see it anymore. I want to get away from here. I ran away. I felt like my heart will burst out.

(A/N For the dance I have uploaded the YouTube video. I am not very good at explaining the dance)

My legs cannot hold me anymore I sat on the garden holding my legs close to my chest. I don't know how long I sat there like that until a voice pulled me like a magnet. It was Kong, it's his voice with so much emotion and pain.

I looked at you from a distance
Hiding behind a fence
I locked myself in room
My heart was numb with coldness
I became vessel of soulless

Filled with darkness like doom
You came breaking the hurdles
Like a ray of sun filled in luster
Smiling at me with hands stretched

Melting the frost of my heart
Making it to beat again
Pumping all feeling of mankind
I started to live again

You where with me every second
Yet I missed you every moment
Like a flower in dew drop
You looked too clear, too close

Like a child
I wanted to treasure you in hand
Like a bubble you busted
I returned to the doom
Not wanting to see the light again

Its yearning heart
No matter how hard I stop it
It keeps searching for you
Searching for you in dark
Waiting for sparkle to appear
In the place you disappear

Like a sunflower looking at the sun
I looked at every path you go
Following your foot prints
Waiting for you to look back

My heart went to deep slumber
Like a machine
It pumped life with no soul

Finally convincing I have not met you
Not walked past each other
Not been with me in troubles
I have no care what you do
I have not seen you in my life
My heart was returning to numbness

Now you stand before me
What should I do?
Should I stop my heart?
Liberating the life from my body
Should I wait for you?
Having the pain with hope
My sun will appear again

The lyrics it hurts me like someone has ripped my heart off me tears started to fall from my eyes without my own knowledge by the time he completed the song I was crying like my entire existence has been removed. It hurts, a lot.

It then I saw him Kong. He was coming with a girl who I have no idea about and that's it I reached my limit and I blew up.

"Kongpob suthiluck you stay right there" I shouted with all my might. I don't care anymore.

"Sir, you called for me?" He asked me as if he has no idea why I am shouting at him.

"What are you doing Kong? Is it really you?"  I asked him

"What do you mean by its really you sir?"

"Stop calling me sir"

"I am afraid not sir. If I let that go I think people will misunderstand us"

"What are you doing to yourself Kong?  Why are you doing it?"

"Why do you care sir?"

"Because you are my friend idiot"

"You call me friend now? Where were you when I cried for day and night for you? Where were you when I texted you each and everyday and yet you chose to ignore me. Where we're you when I begged you to talk with me? I begged you again and again when you ignored me.  Where were why when I said I just want to hear your voice. Where were you when I worked day and night just to tire me out. Where were you when I had sleepless night? Where were you when I skipped the food to the extend when I became anemic. Where were you when you shouted in front of the entire hall way to hear. Where were you when I destroyed every relationship just because I cannot open up to anyone or trust anyone and when I saw lies in every person. Where were you sir when I needed you the most sir? If this the explanation of your friendship sir then I will say that it's better I don't have any sir. Right now I don't feel anymore sir. I don't feel pain or hurt joy or happiness. I am just empty and it feels good.  I gave you what you wanted Sir. I am not the same person anymore. If you don't want to be destroyed by me I advice you to stay away from me and go back to your lover sir"

"I am sorry for everything that i done to you kong. I am really sorry i was not there when you needddme the most. I can't see you destroying your own self"

"Damage is already done. Please don't concern yourself with me" he said to me and walked away from me. I just sat there dumbfounded not knowing what to do anymore. Just watching him to walk away from me once more. I lost him. I lost him completely.