The Sun's Binary star( Continuation Of High School Diary Of Kongpob) Completed

Chapter 19

Kong pov

I was in the terrace gazing the stars trying to understand what is really happening in my life. I am not sure of anything anymore. I even started to doubt whether I loved him. Yes he kissed me. I didn't feel any happiness in it. I felt pain. That it hurt too much. I have thought about kissing hin a lot of time but when he kissed me I felt nothing but pain and anger. Do I love him anymore?

"What are you going to do Kong?" April asked me shaking my shoulder to divert me from my deep thought.

"I don't know April" I replied to her honestly because I don't know what I am going to do.

"What are you trying to say Kong?"

"I didn't feel anything when he kissed me April"

"Are you saying that you are not sure about your feeling anymore?"

"Yes, I don't know about what I am feeling anymore"

"What will you do if he says that he is in love with you ?"

"I don't know April I just want to clear my head a little.  I still like him but I don't know whether I like him the say way I liked him few days back."

"What will you do if he never say that he is in love with you?"

"If he never confess to me I will let him go April. I will let him go if I became his choice once again. I cannot handle it. I am too tired. I cannot stand it anymore. When I really made my mind to let him go. I said to myself again and again that he is not mine anymore. Now he is coming back to me"

"I think he didn't realise that he is love with you Kong. I think he likes you still. You waited too long just one more we won't hurt much"

"No April, he does not like me. He doesn't love me"

"How come you are so sure?"

" It's his guilt that is bringing him back to me. He is mistaking his feeling April. Right now I am really starting to doubt whether he really loves me or all of this is in my  mind. I don't know what is reality anymore. I don't even know myself. I think I betrayed myself long enough"

"Let me ask you something just answer  me honestly"

I just nodded my head when she asked me.

"What did you really felt when he kissed you?"

"I felt hurt. I don't know why but that's what I felt I was not happy"

"Will you allow him to undergo what you went threw?"

"No, I don't want him to get hurt"

"No matter what you choose I will be there for you and I will not judge you but just let go of your barriers. Don't stop you self for anything just say everything don't keep it to your hearJust allow this one week to pass and don't hold you self just follow your feeling by the end of the week you will know what you really want"