Round Here

Chapter Twenty Three

July '84

Dad's health has gotten a bit better. The cancer hasn't spread, but it's still there. Treatment's working and that but it's a fifty-fifty chance. So we're hoping good things. The puppies are doing well. They are little shits, but so are the kids...and my husband. It doesn't change the fact that I love them. The kids are doing okay too since they're out of school. They enjoy being off school. I did and didn't. It means Sonny and I can't have as much alone time as we used to when they were at school. They were more interested in the puppies and they actually like taking care of them. They were six months now and just so cute. The kids loved them. 

Today was a hotter day. Dad called me just to complain. I didn't see the point in that when he could come over to tell me that, but it was too hot to come out he said. I just laughed at that. He doesn't want to leave the nice air conditioning to come over to have more air conditioning. The older two were out with Fredo Jr walking the puppies and the younger ones were in the pool with Freddie and Michael. He brought Angie over a while ago. I didn't mind. She wasn't with her mother, so she came over too. She was always with Michael. She was his girl. Sonny and I were in the house with Vinny, who was so high he couldn't function. So the pool wasn't a good option. He didn't want to go in anyways which was a bonus. I didn't have to worry so much. I just was more worried about him being too high. So he stayed in watching the t.v. with us. I was okay with that. 

Sonny and I had a blanket wrapped around us. It had a few holes in it since the dogs liked to chew on it. I didn't care. I was still warm. Sonny had his arm around me. We were watching some space video because Vinny wanted to watch it. I didn't really mind because it distracted him enough from touching himself and from doing more drugs. Sonny and I were basically on top of each other because he wanted me as close to him as possible. He startled me when he yelled at Vinny. "Vinny get your hand out of your pants!" Vinny whined a bit. "No dad. I don't have them in there." I laughed a bit. "Sonny just leave him be." He looked at me. "Why? He's touching himself. That's weird and gross." I sighed. "And you doing it isn't?" He blushed a bit. Vinny didn't hear that thank god. He knew I was right, but he also did have a point. "But babe, I'm like doing it discretely. He's doing it like right there." I looked at him. Neither of them should be doing it. "Okay how bout you both stop it. Sound fair?" Sonny groaned. Not because of what I said but because I knew what he was doing. Vinny paid more attention to the t.v. now as Sonny began to grind against me. "Mama look! It's my favourite planet!" I was a bit distracted. "Which one is that love?" He laughed a bit. "Saturn mama. That's my favourite one." Sonny held onto me as I'm assuming he reached his climax. "How come you like Saturn so much?" "It's pretty mama." I smiled. Sonny pulled me in a bit closer. "Me, you, the bathroom, now." Was all he said. "No I'm watching this." He stuck his hand up my dress and started to touch me. "This change your mind?" "No, not really. Now stop it." He had this grin on his face. Like he was up to no good. "How bout this?" I felt him push his fingers into me. I bit my lip. "Sonny, please stop." Vinny was a bit more interested in the program now but that wasn't the point. I wasn't really in the mood. He didn't stop. I turned to face him. As much as I was enjoying this I didn't want it. "Do you not understand the word stop?" "I do. Sorry it's just you know I want you to feel good too." He stopped now. "Mama look!" I turned and looked at what he wanted me to look at. Sonny kissed my neck. "Mama, can you come here?" Vinny asked. "Sure hold on a second." He agreed. I got off of Sonny. "I'll be back." I whispered to him. I then went over to Vinny. "What's up son?" I noticed the program was over. "Can we watch another one? Mama I'm sad." He reached out for my hand. I grabbed his. "Why're you sad my love? We can watch another one. Daddy can put it on for us. Right daddy?" Sonny looked over to me. "Yeah I can." He got up and went to the VCR. "I am just really sad mama. I don't know why." I got down to his level. I ran my fingers through his hair. "Are you thinking about him? It's okay to tell mama." He turned away from me for a minute. "A little bit. I just don't want you to get mad at me for doing so." Sonny came over to us. "We're not gonna get mad love. It's okay to be sad. You lost someone close. It's not like you're sad over some random stranger." I covered him up with a blanket a bit more. "I miss him a lot mama. I'm sorry I'm sad. I just miss him and we used to watch planet stuff together. He liked planets too. His favourite planet was Jupiter." "It's okay to miss him. It's okay to be sad baby. Do you wanna watch something different?" He sighed. "No, can I come sit over with you and daddy?" "Sure you can. Come on over." He got up.