The Truth in Cliche (Falling in Reverse and Escape the Fate FanFic) Sequel to Not Good Enough

8. Time Bomb

Carter's POV:

What is it with me? No. Seriously.

Everywhere I go I manage to fuck something up. I mess with people, get in their heads, and then KAPOOF. They like me. And I just end up hurting them more.

Example: Ronnie. I've hurt him so much, and this is just the cherry on top of the 'my somewhat girlfriend/ ex-fiance is a total bitch' Sunday.

Example two: Craig. He liked me before, I told him no. He backed off and got Gab. And now? Now I don't even know. He kissed me. He freaking kissed me. I have avoided him since. That was three days ago. I've been avoiding Ronnie as well. Gosh, why do I find the need to just keep hurting people? Jeez. I'm such a fuck up. I need to find a rock to climb under and hide for the rest of my life.

But I'm pretty sure I'd like, kill some rare breed of ant or something. *Le sigh* Why is stuff so complicated? I want nothing more than to go back to school, and be happy for the rest of my life. Yeah, that's right. A forty year old freshman. Got a problem? Come at me bro.

Did I mention I'm on no sleep? No? Well I am. I can't sleep. Ronnie always has and iron grasp on me, which causing my guilt to leak out in buckets. So I try to go to my bus, and he freaks out and thinks he did something wrong, so we argue for two straight hours before I give up and climb back into his bunk. It happened twice already. So last night I told him I was going to sleep in my bunk, on my bus. He reluctantly agreed, but then the girls decided to hold an all-night movie marathon, therefore causing me to get three hours of sleep last night. And our first show is today.

Sounds like a fucking party, right?

No? Okay, then this will: we have a tour kick-off party after Escape the Fate goes off, they are the last set. And let's just say these parties have a history of getting pretty wild. So no sleep tonight either.

Unless of course I get piss drunk and fall asleep after having wild sex with some random band boy. But of course that can no longer happen considering my fiance is on tour with me. And cheating is never okay. Ever. Lately Ronnie has been more of a big brother than a boyfriend, which honest to god pisses me off more than anything else in the entire world. But of course I can't tell him that, he'll accuse me of being defensive, or 'lying' to him about something. We'll get into it and then I'll want to run away again. WHY IS SHIT SO COMPLICATED?!

"What's wrong Carter?" someone's voice caught me off guard and I jumped. Last time I checked I was alone on the bus. I looked up from the TV I was staring blankly at. It wasn't even on. Oops? Bet I looked like a total crazy person.

"Nothing is wrong. Just got a lot on my mind I guess." I sighed, scooting over to make room for Craig. He smiled softly and sat next to me, placing an arm around my shoulder. At first I thought to shake it off, but I gave up that idea and layed my head on his shoulder.

"Shit gets complicated." was all I said. But I could tell he knew exactly what I was talking about, so he nodded.

"Highschool drama is nothing compared to the shit that goes on during a tour." he agreed. I smiled sadly and tucked my feet under me, getting closer to him. His arm tightened around me.

This is wrong. Very totally and completely wrong, I know it. But umph. I'm a girl. He's a boy. A cute boy. This is wrong.

This is so wrong.

This is so wrong! I screamed at myself in my head. The warnings stopped nothing, and the next thing I know, I'm turning to Craig.

I'm looking deep into his gorgeous brown eyes. They're pretty, but different from Ronnie's. Okay, if I'm gonna do this, no thoughts of Ronnie. I blocked him out of my mind and looked deeper in Craig's eyes.

Too deep.

I leaned up and connected our lips. Fireworks went off throughout my whole body. This was wrong, and dangerous. It was exciting. I pulled away for a second, but only to straddle him. He reconnected our lips this time. I smiled into the kiss and pushed him back, and licked his bottom lip lightly. I felt his chest rumble with laughter before he opened up. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me closer, if that were even possible. I pulled away and caught a breath. He pulled me back lightly by my hair and explored my mouth greedily.

So wrong.

I pulled away and smiled.

"Thank you." I said. He nodded.

"Welcome. Anytime doll." he smirked and let me climb off of him.

"How about a little Gears of War now?" I asked

"Sounds delightful." he answered, grabbing a remote from the coffee table and starting up the game.

Hmph, Ronnie and I never play video games anymore. I mentally slapped myself. No comparing Craig to Ronnie. You are with Craig right now. So enjoy it. I smiled and grabbed the other remote.

Here we go.

*

Ronnie's POV:

"Hey Jace. Where is Carter?" I asked her.

"On our bus." she smiled and pointed over to it.

"Thanks." I said and headed over. We were parked outside of tonight's venue. It was a small club in nothern California. I knocked on the bus door before opening it. I was greeted by a very happy looking Carter, and an awkward looking Craig. She waved at me distractedly and turned back to the game.

"Whatcha playing?" I asked, plopping onto the couch opposite of them and ignoring Craig.

"Gears. And don't be rude Ronald. Greet Craig." she chastised me and continued to shoot.

"Hey Craig." I said with as much enthusiasm as I could muster. It was enough because Craig smiled genuinely at me and said

"Hey Ronnie." I watched them play for about an hour before Craig gave me his controller, saying he had to go get ready for sound check. I thanked him and wished him luck on his show. When he left Carter paused the game and looked at me.

"Hey." she smiled

"Hey." I laughed. She tackled me with a hug. I was shocked, but wrapped my arms around her none the less.

"What's gotten into you?" I laughed, but she put a finger over my lips.

"Shut up and kiss me you idiot." She grinned madly, and I didn't object. I leaned up and kissed her. She smiled into the kiss and moved her lips with mine, she pulled my hair, deepening the kiss. I pulled away.

"I didn't know you started smoking again." I said

"I didn't smoke to-" she seemed to stop herself and think about something, almost remembering. Her eyes got slightly bigger. "Oh, yeah. I did sneak off for a smoke. I only ever do it when I'm stressed nowadays." she smiled at me, and I smiled back.

"Oh. What are you stressed about?" I asked her, letting her curl up into my side.

"This is the first show of the tour. I don't wanna mess up." she answered. I smiled

"Aw. Don't worry baby. You're perfect. You'll do amazing." I reassured her. She nodded and thanked me. We sat in silence until Jacen climbed onto the bus.

"Mkhay Miss Nothing," she said, using a Taylor Momsen joke. Carter rolled her eyes at the nick name, "Time for sound check." She finished.

"Okay!" she said excitedly before kissing me. "Bye Ronnie." she said after she pulled away.

"Bye doll." I replied. She walked off the bus and I sat there thinking.

I really wish she wouldn't smoke. I got up and walked off her bus to find something to curve my boredom until our sound check.