Watashi no Himitsu no Ai no Monogatari 私の秘密の愛の物語

Ane to no bestofrendo 姉とのbestfriend

Mavis' Point of View

Being in a secret relationship means you cannot act like you’re in a relationship with that person at all. It kinda sucks..

Everything changed between us. We are not loud and proud anymore.

And I noticed he seem conscious about what others might think about us, most especially him.

I just.. go with the flow.

I don’t want to disobey what he wants to happen. I don’t want him to hate me. I don’t want to quarrel..

Even if I get jealous whenever he hangs out with other girls that go all giggly at him. Their painted nails all over him.. You can’t deny he’s cool, handsome and attractive. He got a few admirers in our school.

While me, I just try my best to ignore what I see and what I hear. If possible, I would like to carve my eyes out and put it back again if everyone’s clear and out of sight. But what they say is much painful. They say I’m pitiful, I’m oddly quiet whenever Allen is around with random girls, et cetera.

Mental torture..

Another torture, besides my problem with my mom. I don’t know if I can take it anymore.

My happiness disappeared. Whenever I’m here at home, I still smile thinking of my friends who make me laugh and be happy. But now..

Every night, I cry myself to sleep. And what’s more depressing is..

..nobody knows.

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This went on for weeks. And one unforgettable day happened..

I saw Rianne, our classmate, flirting with Allen. I noticed that she’s topping the list of his fan girls. She was whispering something to Allen.. Her body so close to his, and her lips almost touching Allen’s ear.

I know because I accidentally glued my eyes on them while walking towards the restroom. When I bumped into a higher year student for not paying attention..

“Sh*t!” It was a hard bump, for her to curse like that. “Watch where you’re going! So stupid..” She looks at me with piercing eyes.

“I’m so sorry.. I’m sorry..” I repeatedly said while bowing my head. She quickly stormed away, and I looked at the people who witnessed.

And I saw Allen looking at me.. After 15 bloody seconds, he shifted his attention back to Rianne. And everyone got busy with their own businesses again.