My Abusive Life

CHAPTER 4: BEING JAIL,

I was in jail again. I couldn't believe it. I was so furious at my bf, I just wanted to beat the hell out of him. But if I did, I would get hit more worse than I had hit him. I was hauled off to court on Tuesday for my sentecing. The judge tolld me that I would be in jail for 45 days which means the remainder of my probation. I was bummed. When I got back, I asked if I could call someone because I didn't make my one call when I was brought in. I called my mom, I told her where I was and she started to cry. I was crying to. An officer took the from me and was talking to my mom telling her that she could come see me and write me. She calmed me and my mom down. I told my mom that I love her, and that I'll be alright. When I got back to my cell block, this girl was talking shit about me, about how I'm not a woman and how I can't please my man. I was pissed, I started to beat the shit out of her. Me and her were put in lockdown. I was there for 15 days and her was for 30 days. She caused it, there was witnesses. My mom came and saw me for the first time, it was hard for us to see eachother behind a glass talking. I couldn't kiss her and tell her how much I love her and even hug her. Yes we have had our diiferences but she was always there for me, no matter what I was going through. We only had 30 minutes and she had to leave. I told her to tell LEE, my step-dad that I said hi. She said okay, and that she loves me with all of my heart. I had gotten a letter from my bf saying that he misses me and that he was worried because he hasn't seen me, he went to my mom's place and my mom said that I was in jail. He told me that he would try and come see me and that he loves me. I was happy. But that changed, he never once saw me while I was in coutny jail. He just wrote me. Oh well. But my mom was always visisting me, she even visited me on my 19th birthday. All of the officers were nice to me cause they know my bf and how he is. They told me to leave him and stay with my mom and step-dad because my bf would never stop hitting me. I wished I had listened to them and my mom, even my step-dad. When the 45 days were up I was released and I walked to my mom's house and surprise her. They let me out early for good behaviour. My mom was surprised and happy. My step-dad didn't want to talk to me cause he was still mad that I decided to stay with my abusive bf. I kissed my mom and hugged her and told her that I would visit her later. I walked to the east side and I walked into the house. His mom was on the phone but when she saw me, she dropped the phone and screamed. My bf came from the kitchen and when he saw me he was as shocked ass his mom. He picked me up and started to hug me and kiss me. They were cooking tacos. I ate some real food and it was good cause it wasn't jail food. I had at least a pack of cigs that I smoked because I was craving the nicotine while I was locked up. It felt good to be free, and he told me that he would never abuse me ever again and he would never force himself on me again. I believed that, I just wish that it was true and he was telling the truth. Boy was I wrong, AGAIN.