Collided (Rastro Fanfic)

Chapter 6

Felt all that was within, the dread and lonely pain
Fore seeing all the grey clouds, and endless rain
In an entrapment of her bleak, bedroom place
Many scratches of finger nails, adorned her face

Scars of the tormented, and that without release
Collected them like dolls, upon skin like a crease
Sunken eyes reflecting, the soul of a sunken heart
When futures hope seem diminished, and torn apart

Black lines of her heavy make up, drawn down
By so many tears, shed beneath her failed crown
Clasping her wrist, another attempt failed and stings
The music of her emotion, now in her ear doth rings

Though destinies sands, of her future are running out
Upon her lips adorn the kiss, of this deathly spout
That a dagger drawn from a box, of marble and wood
In her bedroom undetermined, to whether she should

The bare trees of autumn, tapping the dark window
Though to convince her, of an alternative innuendo
So much has she lost, that her black nails are tight
Around the handle of this blade, and loosing sight

That with one last breath, stolen by her searing pain
Of final thrust, that this blade pierced without a strain
Into her solemn heart, choking her grief as her blood
Ran like tears, down her breasts, staining like mud

Dropping to the floor, like a seed of the dandelion
Falls upon the winds end, but only to see oblivion
So much of her last thoughts, as her life ebbs away
Never shall she see, the beginning of a new born day

As the time for her life, has slowly begun to stop
From the blades handle, blood spills dropp by drop
Silent now, as her body lays still, grey as the sky
Young was her soul, victimised, too young to die

by V.G.

Ipinikit ko ang aking mga mata matapos basahin ang nilalaman ng kapirasong papel na nakaipit sa notebook ni Monique. Lumagok ako mula sa bote ng beer na hindi ko alam kung pang ilan ko na. Mahigit tatlong oras na din akong nakatambay sa veranda ng aking silid dito sa mansyon. Pansamantala muna kasi akong umuwi habang ang buong pamilya ay nagluluksa sa pagkawala ng panganay na anak nina Suzanne Cordova at Brian King.

Suicide. Iyon ang initial findings ng mga pulis sa pagkamatay ni Monique. Sangayon  ito sa resulta ng autopsy niya in which she died due to blood loss from the cuts of both of her wrists. Andiyan na din yung fact na she might have suffered depression because of the unlikely events that have occured recently. Nakitaan din ng mga alak at pills sa tinitirahan ni Monique. Although suicide yung anggulong tinitignan ng mga pulis ay bukas pa rin ang kanilang pinto sa posibleng homicide although the chances are little dahil wala namang makitang struggle at disturbance sa crime scene.

Everything's pointing to her committing suicide but something in me is in denial of the reality. Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na kayang gawin ni Monique to. She's a strong woman kaya kahit anumang pagsubok yan ay alam kong kaya niyang lagpasan. I reassured her countless times that I always got her back and that everything's gonna be fine. Hindi pa ba sapat iyon? Nagkulang ba ako? Mali ba ako? Talaga bang hindi ko lubos na kilala ang aking kapatid?

Napasabunot na lamang ako sa dami ng aking iniisip. Ang laking panghihinayang. Yung career niya na pangarap pa niyang maging isang magaling at kilalang surgeon. Yung dream family na binanggit niya sa akin nung mga bata pa kami. Kami...kami na pamilya niyang lubos na minamahal siya. Bakit ba nagkaganito?!