I was 9 when my Dad died. Then to make matters worse I was bullied. I started believing what they were saying and started hating myself. When I was 10 I started cutting. My friend taught me how. I'm still a cutter. I broke down last week and ruined my 3 month clean streak.My message is that it will get easier.I know you probably hear that all the time and I'm some stranger, but there is someone out there who cares. Sure there are fake people out there, but there are real people out there who you're gonna need and they're actually gonna be there. Don't be scared to ask for help. You're not alone and don't have to be alone in this. I know that it seems that way, but there are communities, people, and even animals that can help. Asking for help is the first step to getting better. You just have to ask. You have to be willing to take the first step, to have the initiative to get the help that can make you better and help you stop harming yourself. Don't be afraid to cry. Crying is proven to help. You can even search it up. It's proven that crying helps. Just because you cry doesn't mean that you're weak or that you're a cry baby. It means that you're strong enough that you don't care what other people think. You don't deserve this. You don't deserve the pain that you're going through. You didn't do anything to deserve the pain that you're going through. You're body doesn't deserve that punishment.This isn't your fault. You didn't choose to feel this way. This isn't your fault and will never be your fault. Don't place the blame on yourself.
