"if it was for you I could. pretend to be happy even when I was sad. if it was for you I could. pretend to be strong even when I was hurting.
CHAPTER TWENTY FIVE
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I wished that love would only need love to be perfect. that all my flaws would be hidden. in a dream that wouldn't come true. I grew a flower that couldn't bloom."
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Elianna has always loved parties.
She loved walking out of her irksome house with hysteria buzzing in her veins and strong perfume in the air, on her way to meet her friends. Parties became a part of Elianna's lifestyle from a young age due to the friends she decided to hang out with, they were a bad influence and most of them saw no value of education. This lead to her drinking alcohol, meeting toxic people, dancing like it was her last night on earth, making friends and all the bizarre, drunk things that come along with a party of teenagers ... becoming common in her life.
She enjoys being popular and having a reputation in her small town full of strange people ... it makes her feel prideful. She likes the satisfaction gained from people knowing her and arriving to her parties. Elianna loves having people come up to her, thanking her for the party and gaining compliments for the types of parties she throws.
She's well known for the wrong things and she's starting to realise that this kind of life is not what she wants anymore.
And it shocks her.
This is what her thoughts consist of when she looks at Jungkook from across the room, the boy with a heart of gold and most importantly, the boy she gets to call hers. Who would've thought?- she almost laughs at herself. She hopes she doesn't take him for granted- she's trying not to. He's standing with the boys, a glass of whiskey in his hand as he laughs loudly with no care in the world. For once, he's tipsy and carefree at a party.
Jungkook being drunk is a different side to her boyfriend which Elianna had not yet experienced. She loves exploring new aspects about people. Once again, she's reminded of the fact that everyone has their appearance and their reality, as well as their different sides in different situations.
For example, when Jungkook is happy, his nose scrunches cutely- he finds it hard not to show his content and he usually keeps physically close to Elianna. However, when Jungkook is disappointed or sad, he likes to be alone and he stays very quiet.
Elianna's heart jumps when she hears her boyfriend's laughter, he's enjoying his time with their friends which makes her sip her glass of water with a smile. Elianna is deciding not to drink today which is something she rarely does. Jungkook is more important than getting drunk- she told herself as she declined the cup of alcohol.
Elianna thinks about how she'd rather be at her apartment with Jungkook, instead of at a tedious party with people who are too busy being lovers with alcohol, who don't realise they're wasting their nights away.
