The Short Love Between Jean and Rob

Let Me Live

Rob's P.O.V

I have to tell her, It will only break her heart if I didn't, I love her with all my heart, but messaging her about this is the least that I can do for her at this moment.

I looked at my cousin and my mom, they are both sitting at the chair near my bed, they look so tired, their eyes are full of worry and sorrow.

My cousin stood up for a second and looked at me, I then understood what was happening.

"Mom, do you mind if we just talk a bit..private?" I asked.

My mom just nodded, not trusting her own voice to be steady.

She stood up and left the room, but not before looked at me and whispered 'I love you'.

I just smiled at her faintly and sat up from my bed.

"So...are you gonna ever tell her?" my cousin asked.

I looked at my phone for a moment and replied to him "I guess so, It's the least that I can do" , my cousin looked at me and started to shake.

His hands are curled into a fist, he is gripping the sheets hard, he bowed his head and then faintly sobbed.

I also bowed my head and then hugged him, I hate seeing my family cry, I hate seeing the people that I love in so much pain because of me.

"I-I don't want t-this to happen, Rob, why not me? Why n-not just someone else? Why YOU?! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! YOU'RE MY COUSIN, IT HURTS ME TOO!" he screamed and then stood up from my bed, he started crying really loud and then fell back down again.

It hurts me, It hurts to see your famiky in such a state of trauma and shock, such a state of sadness and anger.

"Alex, we can't do anything about this, It already happened, It's not gonna stop anytime soon, we just have to wait until it's time" I stated, my voice cracked and I looked away from my cousin.

I felt his arms around my shoulders, I looked up and saw him crying, my mom then went inside the room to see us like this, she's with dad.

My dad started to tear up too, my mom just started to pat Alex's back and brush his hair like he's her own son.

Alex is about one year younger than me.
So I've always looked at him as a younger brother.
I have never seen him cry like this before, and I feel guilty.

We are still in the hospital, the I.V is still in my skin and flesh.

My skin is starting to slowly lose the color, I've been in the hospital for weeks now, I just didn't wanna tell Jean about it, I didn't want to ruin her Christmas.

But I'll fight for her, I'll make sure that I'm still here when her Prom night comes.

I wanna see her in her gown, I wanna see her happy, I wanna see her wearing her precious makeup, I wanna hear her voice while she is telling me what she did that night.

I wanna hear her stories.
I wanna be there for her and still support her, I don't even care if she doesn't become my girlfriend, I'm courting her and she is letting my court her, that's what is important.

I'll try to live another day for her.

To see her face with a smile, to hear her sweet, adorable voice.
To hear her sing with her amazing vocals.
See her enjoying life while she can.
I wanna grow old with her, I wanna hold her atleast before it's too late.

I wan't to live another day to hear her say 'I love you Rob'.
Or 'I love you too'.
Lord, please, let me atleast give her everything she deserves.
Every bit of love that I can, I'll give it to her.

Jean, I love you.