The Short Love Between Jean and Rob

Recovery

Jean's P.O.V

I'm in my room, crying, oh god.

Why? Why him? I can't live like this, I hope we get through it.
I'll give him every part of my heart just to let him feel motivated to actually fight.

Rob, we will fight for our love, okay? We will fight this together.

I started remembering the moments where I spoke to him, via calls, texts, or just plain letters.
I started remembering all the times that I've dreamt about him, about us.

The promises that we made, the hopes amd dreams that we discussed on our late night calls.
The times that I slept late just to be able to talk to him.
When Gale was just leaving me, he was there to comfort me, I've loved him ever since.

The day when he had actually gone out of his way to send me things on my locker.

His words of encouragement, when he made me the happiest and luckiest girl alive.

You know the worst part about this? Before he told me about his condition, I ignored his calls and messages, just because I wanted to be alone.
I know that I'm not perfect, but I tried to be a better person for him, I stopped drinking just to forget my on going fight with anxiety.

He was there for me, NO, SCREW THAT, HE IS HERE FOR ME, HE WILL BE HERE FOR ME, WE WILL BE TOGETHER BY THE TIME OF VALENTINES DAY.

I kept on crying, trying to control myself from reaching for my beer, for have it stocked in my mini fridge, but I haven't actually drank any of it.

I'm trying to be here and sober for Rob.

If he was there for me, I'll be here for him.

I saw his face, finally....but he was in a hospital bed.

I can't believe that this is happening, I'm so broken right now, so speechless.

I can't even touch his hands, he is just inside my phone, on my screen.

I'm looking at the I.V that is attached to his hand, his body is almost skin and bones, I've heard that he wasn't like this before, he might be pale now, but his eyes...they are still as vibrant and bright as ever, those are the eyes that he sent me when we were just starting to open up about each other.

Those bright and lively dark brown eyes, will always be the eyes that I fell inlove with.

No matter what he looks like now, I'll still be able to fall head over heels for him all over again.

We are currently in a Video call, his cousin is holding the phone, Rob is looking at me and smiling, I love his smile, I always will.

I'll keep it in my memory.

I started singing for him.

Thinking out loud - Ed sheeran

When your legs don't work like they used to before
And I can't sweep you off of your feet
Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love
Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks

And darling I will be loving you 'til we're 70
And baby my heart could still fall as hard at 23
And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
Oh me I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I am

His smile grew wider and started hiding his face with his hands, adorable.

So honey now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
Maybe we found love right where we are

I didn't notice before, but I was crying.
My voice grew weaker and weaker, until I was sobbing while singing.

I was shocked when he started singing with a weak but loving voice.

But the lyrics made me only cry even harder.

When my hair's all but gone and my memory fades
And the crowds don't remember my name
When my hands don't play the strings the same way, mm
I know you will still love me the same

This duet continued until a nurse started to speak "Sir, you have to rest now, we'll be giving you your medicine soon".

We said goodbye for now.