Echo

05

[ 05 ]

I awake the next day to the smell of what I assume is breakfast although it doesn't smell like pancakes or eggs my stomach still growls. I make my way to the bathroom to change and rinse my face seeing a new tooth brush with placed on the counter. I smile and brush my teeth humming a song in the process. I come out of the bathroom and wander around the beautifully decorated house until I come to the kitchen peeking around the doorway to see three people surrounding an the kitchen island.

"So did you find out why she's carrying money and clothes around?" "No not yet Taehyung, but I will figure it out."  Namjoon says while scooping some food into a bowl "You should ask her after breakfast hyung." Jimin adds seating himself at one of the island seats resting his face in his palm. I give up at the idea of eavesdropping it's useless considering I can't understand what they're saying so I reveal myself just before Namjoon can reply. I stand in the doorway not really sure if I should come in or not. I keep my eyes on the ground tracing the patterns of the floor with my eyes. I feel their looks on me but I keep my eyes trained on the floor.

"You can come in and sit down, we don't bite." I look up to see Namjoon, Taehyung, and Jimin grinning at me the sight easing some of my worries. I move towards the island taking a seat in the chair next to Jimin when a bowl is scooted towards me. I take a look at the contents of the bowl and am greeted with rice and a lot of vegetables.

I push the bowl back and sigh " Do you maybe have cereal?" I say hope filling my voice. "No... we don't usually eat cereal and stuff like that for breakfast." He pushes the bowl back in my direction. "Just give it a try, It won't be that bad I promise." He holds out his pinky finger and I interlace my smaller one with his taking his word. " I scoop up a spoonful of the food taking my finger and pushing off the vegetables. They all give me a pointed look I groan and roll my eyes picking up the vegetables that I pushed off setting them back on top of the rice.

I stare at the spoon in my hand for a second before pushing it into my mouth. I'm not gonna lie it's pretty good. I smile taking another spoonful shoving it into my mouth. Hoorays and claps surround me as I eat the food making me giggle a little bit. The light atmosphere is gone just as quickly as it came once Namjoon dismisses the other two boys. They both look at me waving goodbye exiting the kitchen. My appetite starts to decline as the next few words spill from Namjoons mouth.

"You should call your parents I'm sure they're worried about you. They probably want you to come home." "If only you knew..." I mumble. He looks at me but I avoid his gaze instead staring at the window to my left. "Yeah...maybe I should." I begin to think that maybe what my mom said was just out of rage and maybe she was feeling particularly sensitive about my dad that night. I know some nights are worse than others for me. What if my mom misses me? How do I know that the police aren't looking for me right now.

I step off the stool, Namjoon following me to the living room entering and seeing that one of the youngest boy is playing a video game. I watch in amazement as the boy expertly kills and gains point but my attention is shifted one Namjoon taps my shoulder. "Here you can come up to my room and make the call there it should be way quieter." I grab my bag with all my things in it following Namjoon up the stairs into his large room. On the right wall is a bed placed in the middle with a nightstand on the left side of the bed. Across from his bed is a large tv but what really catches my attention is the balcony. I make my way across the room stopping in front of the doors to the balcony just to admire the beautiful view.

"I'll give you privacy, if you need me I'll be waiting in the hallway." He turns around shutting the door leaving me alone. I notice my phone is almost dead and I don't want it to turn off in the middle of my phone call. "Maybe I should charge it." I walk towards the bed spotting a charging port. I slide down the wall pushing my charger into the port. I stretch my legs out noticing the bed blocks my sight of the other side of the room. My phone dings alerting me back to the task at hand. The thought of calling my mother makes my heart begin to beat harder, I become more anxious the more I wait. I whisper encouraging words to myself and open the the contacts app scrolling a little before coming across my moms number.

{ 🌻Mom🌻 }

Would you like to call 🌻Mom🌻 ?

[ YES ]                 [ NO ]

I hesitate slightly before pressing yes. The phone rings for a few seconds causing my heart to beat faster and faster as the phone rings, finally she picks up.

"What do you want! I thought I finally got rid of you!" She spits and my heart cracks again. Any ounce of hope that this would be a good phone call I had floating around fizzled out.  I can't think of anything to say so I just stay silent regretting that I ever picked up the phone. "Oh, so you're too dumb to talk now. Ya know I could never really understand why you're father loved you so much you're worthless, I'm surprised you even lasted this long!" " Where are you huh! You know what... don't tell me I really don't care." I began to sob dropping the phone to the ground. I bring my knees to my chest sobs running throughout my body. I feel numb at this point, I don't know what I was expecting when I called this woman hates me. My own mother hates me and probably always has. She stops for a second before continuing. "I never loved you and  neither did your fa-" the call is cut out before she can finish Namjoon clicking the end call button.

I mustn't have heard him open the door to the room too consumed in my own tears. Namjoon pulls me up bringing me into a hug causing me to cry harder. "Why doesn't anyone love me!" I yell into his chest trying to push him away. He hushes me pulling me closer all attempts at getting away failing. I stop trying to escape grasping the front of his shirt I release it again still in his embrace.

"Why doesn't anyone love me?"