More Than This: A Deidara Fanfic

Part 3: Drifting Apart Chapter 15

I feel my eyes droop and make my way to Sasori, explaining my whereabouts for the future while they continued to party. I make my way to Sasori to find him and some girl making out. It was awkward to say the least. Even Sasori, who I never thought to have romantic needs, could attract ladies. It seemed the whole Akatsuki had the ability of being a chick magnet. Even bitch boy AKA Hidan, the old geezer AKA Kakuzu, and the nerve hitting, tyrant. You can only guess who that is. I walk out of the club, making my way to the room me and Tukiko shared. I hold my hand up to knock, as not to interrupt something but I realize that this was my room so I simply walk in. Tukiko and Deidara are sitting on the couch laughing and talking before I let the door slam and they look up to face me.

"Oh my gosh! Nioki, we were so worried! You disappeared on us!" Tukiko claims although I know she enjoyed the alone time with Deidara.

Deidara runs up to me and hugs me. "We were so worried about you. Why did you just run off without telling us."

My arms hang limply by my side. I was not going to hug back, no matter how warm it made me inside.

"Okay, this is going to feel really awkward if you don't hug back." Deidara says jokingly. I push him away.

I see Tukiko give me a dirty look unknowingly but it changes into a look of fake worry. "We looked everywhere for you. Nioki, where'd you disappear to?"

I cross my arms sternly. "Looked everywhere, huh? Where'd you think I was, in the couch cushion?"

"Nioki, that's not funny! We were seriously worried." Deidara says with a scornful look on his face.

"I wasn't trying to be funny! It isn't a secret that you made no move to look for me! Hell, I'm surprised you even noticed I disappeared. Having dandy conversations, ignoring everything I said. You didn't pay me the slightest attention so I left to go where people actually cared!"

"Is that what you're mad about? Not getting attention! Honestly Nioki, you ditched because you wanted attention!" Deidara yells.

Fury was slowly taking over me. I couldn't think straight over the heat going throughout my body and the rush of adrenaline flooding me. I slap him...hard. You could hear the contact of my hand on his cheek. It echoed through my head, reverberating in my ears. "That's not it! I didn't want just any attention! I wanted my two best friends to actually give one shit about me for a second! One second! Is that too hard to ask!" I storm to the bedroom area, going to the porch and sitting on the railing, the cool breeze calming me and cooling me off, needless to say, I was still fuming.

I hear footsteps and the door open, someone stepping out. "Go away..." I say without looking to see who it was, I knew it was Tukiko, Deidara couldn't face me after what happened, but I still didn't want to see anyone right now.

"Nioki...I think we need to talk."

I stay silent, maybe that would shoo her away.

"I know how you feel for Deidara, so i-"

"Stop Tukiko! If you're implying that I like him, get that assumption out of your head! It is so ridiculous! If we don't even have time to be friends, how would we have time for me to grow affection for him!"

"What's happening with you guys?"

I turn around. "I don't know! How about I ask you! You seem to know a hell of a lot more than me! Stop asking me questions concerning Deidara and I! I. Don't. Know. And to be honest, I. Don't. Care either. When you figure out the answer, you tell me!"

I could see tears developing in her eyes. "I-I'm sorry, Nioki. I don't know what I did or what Deidara did but I am sorry for whatever it is I did."

I sigh and turn back towards the training field. "Don't apologize. You didn't do anything. That's the thing. You're perfect, im always the one who screws things up and you take the opportunity."

"Nioki..."

I shake my head. "Leave it at that. Just go please. I'm the one who's sorry so leave." I hated being like that but I was really frustrated. I hear the door open and then close several seconds later. I jump down onto the ground, heading to the training field.

I enjoyed the training but something about it was different. It was more aggressive and assiduous. Turns out, taking out anger really helped when in stressful situations. I turn around and throw a kunai full force at the person coming, Deidara, only because I knew he would dodge it.

He gasps and drops to the ground, holding his stomach. My eyes widen and I rush to his side. I may have been mad but I didn't intend to hurt him. "Deidara!"