RollerCoaster Ride.

Chapter 20

JAXONS POV

"This is too soon, Carlee," I had practiced saying that in the mirror about thirty times before this one and I realized, I couldn't face her. She looked so happy.

I realized last night, she is my best friend. I don't think that this relationship thing is the best for us but how in the hell could I tell her that? She'll be heartbroken. The apartment idea is INSANE. I SHOULDN'T have chased her all the way to Montana. I shouldn't be dating my best friend.

Before I could understand what was going on, I heard something. It was my own voice.... What?

Oh shit. I had been saying all of this out loud.

"Jaxon......" I heard from behind me.

"Carlee, I didn't mean that. Hear me out," I begged.

"No... You don't think we're working. That's enough explanation for me. I feel the same way!" She sounded relieved?

"I'm so sorry, Jaxon, but I didn't think this was working either! Oh my god. Such a major relief!!" She added a slight smile at the end.

"Now we can go back to being just best friends!! And this whole apartment thing was absolutely insane, but I just can't kick you out, Jax!!"

"Glad we feel the same way, Carlee."

CARLEES POV

I was devastated.

Absolutely heartbroken.

But I don't want him to feel bad. I want him to do what he wants.

JAXONS POV

I'm dead. Absolutely dead. But that doesn't matter if she's happy. I mean, her and I aren't a good fit...

We don't work..... Right?

We won't work.... Right?

We can't work..... I'm not so sure about this.

But I have to go.

So I packed my bags...

Gave my..... 'bestfriend' a final hug,

And left to Harvard.

To live my life.

But there's one thing....

I'm pretty sure that she IS my life.

I don't even know about my feelings... I'm so difficult.