He spent the rest of the day with me, nursing me, trying to make me feel any better.
I had to run to the bathroom about twenty times today.
Most were for throwing up but some were for my spontaneous crying fits.
I don't know what my problem is today but I have been crying a lot.
"Baby.... open the door please," I heard Jaxon coo as I searched for my razors in my drawers.
Jaxon didn't know I was like this and I didn't plan on him knowing any time soon.
Sam knew. Dad knew. Mom knew. Three people.
Not even David knew.
This would break his heart to know.
Next thing I know, as soon as I drag the razor across my already scarred skin, Jaxon walks in, screw driver in hand.
The door knob fell to the ground, as did Jaxon.
"No... You.... you self harm?" He fell to the ground in a pool of our tears.
I could only nod and continue my crying fit.I didn't have the energy to talk.
"I... This is my fault... I'm not good enough... I'll go..."
"No..... N-No... Don't go," My voice came out cracking, and harsh.
He sat down next to me, took my razor out of my hand, and cleaned off my fresh wounds.
"How long?" he asked worried.
"Hm??"
"How long have you done this?"
"Since... I was 14."
"THREE YEARS AND I NEVER KNEW CARLEE????!!!!" He raised his voice at me.
I stood up, faced him, with a ton more strength than I knew I had and said,"No, you didn't need to know. You had enough problems on your plate Jaxon. FOR GODS SAKE, your dad was an abusive drunk and your mom was a workaholic."
"Don't bring my dad up... DON'T." I could practically see him slamming my door and leaving me already.
"Can we please.... just go back out there and watch netflix?" I wiped my tear stained face.
"Of course. I'm sorry for my outburst. You should've told me, Baby..."
"I know, and I'm sorry Jaxon."
And with that, we sat down on my bed and continued to watch my favorite tv show, every ten minutes, my cheek receiving a light kiss from Jaxon's incredibly soft lips.
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