~Dear lover heather~ Evan Hansen X heather reader

~please don't~

(Ok guys is serious chapter and depressed y/n comes in again now to story)
Y/n
I saw our old texts and I sigh and face the screen down and put my hands on my face and say " Evan why do you love me?" And I look up and nobody was in the house and I went quietly to my laptop and saw quick way to kill my self and I said " well I going to die today" and I grab pills and beer and I text Evan this
" hey evan"
" hi y/n!"
"Happy death day to me"
"Are you ok?"
"Happy death to me!!!!!"
" am coming to your house"

And I ran upstairs and I grab the pills and I put it on my mouth and start trying to open the beer and I said " open you fucking beer!!" And I felt a hand and it was evan and he said " please no y/n..." And I spit out the pills and said " evan why did you pick me of all the girls you pick is me"

and he said " please it just that I liked you since 7th grade" and I smiled sadly and said " Evan I made promise that just to be friends" and he starts flowing with sadness and I said " I broke the promise.." And he said " wait wha..." And I straight up kiss him and I said " am sorry Ev" and he said " well date night is canceled" and I said " am going see movie soooo..."

"Yes!! I-I mean sure.." And I started laughing and I put in movie and I started spacing out and the voice spoke " oh no Evan is party pooper get knife tomorrow and stabby stabby on you self " and I said in my mind " ugh fine I will" and movie end and Evan was sleep and I smile and I went to my room and quickly write little letter to Evan
" a empty room a empty tomb a empty body"

And I said " there Evan am sorry I have to do it" and voice said " you're going to do it now!?!" And I said " yes" and I started grabbing a knife and I started crying and said " I will be free" and I started stabbing my self and everything when black

Evan
S/n
Mom
Dad
Everyone am sorry
Evan
I fell asleep and Connor voice came in " Evan get up your girlfriend is trying to kill herself" and I said " she said she promised to not kill herself" and Connor said " get fucking up!!she grabbing the knife!!!" And I jumped up I was too late she was on the floor and i called the ambulance and I started crying and I said " why y/n I thought you loved me...."

And she spoke little " I do" and I looked over and i saw y/n and she said " I do love you but depression took over" and we got to hospital and I said " come on!" And y/n family and friends came in and said " what happened" and I said " y/n tried to kill herself" and everyone started crying and

doctor came out and said " she fine but she has antidepressants pills" and I said " that good" and Doctor said " there some bad news she has to stay in hospital for 3 weeks so here stabbed skin can heal" and I said " can we see her?" And doc said " yes you can but someone has to stay" and I said " I will"

Y/n little part
Well I see hospital oh shit and I said
"Please don't do this me again voice"

( oh fuck um yes your voice is your depression and you need get rid of that voice before you can move again and guys now I have toon out bye!!)