~Dear lover heather~ Evan Hansen X heather reader

~ eating it and losing it ~

Y/n
I got out of the hospital and I saw some people and they said " hey y/n!!" And I said " hey..." And I started looking around I saw a happy couple and their children and Evan said " are you okay? You been like this since we left the hospital " and I said " am fine Evan don't worry about me" and Heather my old friend ( duke) said " girl are you okay?!?" And I said all most screaming " am fine!" And Jeremy said " come on we know you are not okay"

I said " guys just stop am not going to tell you what wrong!" And they all said " please!" And I ran to my room and I saw my pictures and I started crying and I rub the photo and said " eating and throwing" and I threw the photo away and hear from down stairs

" she not fine Evan!!" " yes she is!!" "Evan can you see your girlfriend is trying to hide it" " am with Jeremy my girl is not okay" " yes she is Heather she tell me she fine" and I stop hearing and I saw my escape bag and I grab it and I escaped by window

And i ran and I went to 7/11 ( yes same 7/11 from Heathers) and I throw up and I just got cookie and I just looked that it and said " later" and I throw cookie ( noooo! Cookie!) and I walked away and I saw gang ( Evan, Heather, Jeremy) and I started running to mall it was packed

So I bend in and Heather said " just find her" and I said " oh no you won't" and I started climbing ( yes you do parkour) and I started running to exit and I opened the doors and I screamed " freedom!!" (4 hours later) I climbed trees and waited from them and Evan said " hey " and I said " am sorry for li.." And he hugged me

And I fell from the tree and said " waving " and my back hurts but no that bad and they said " are you okay?!?" And i said " I have eating disorder" and everyone stop and looks that me and said " why?" And I said " family problems" I Lot of my family doesn't like my side of my family and I all away want to die but I stay strong

And everyone said " ice cream?" And I said " sure" and we went and I was in back and Jenna came up and said " hey guys!" And everyone in happy voice said " hey!" And I said quietly " hey..." And I keep looking and everyone is acting like they didn't look that me and we got here and

I just sample and didn't eat anything and I ran to restroom and I started throwing up and I saw myself and I said " you wordless shit, nobody will ever like you" and I took antidepressants and they didn't work ( some pills don't work guys!)

and acted like nothing happened and brook and Heather look  me home and said " are you really okay?" "...." And I just said " just stop talking about me I know you guys want to help me but it me and problems" and I kicked them out and I started crying and said

" eating sadness lost happiness"

( yes some are from be more chill but yes next chapter your sister throws party and she invited the gang and they convinced you to stop and they will help you in path of recovery and toon out! 587 words)