Deadly Decisions

Dreamy Revelations

{Light's point of view }

I dreamt of Ryuzaki that night. It was raining and he was crying into my shoulder.  Why was he crying? 

"I can hear the bells,  we'll be parting ways soon"

His voice was muffled by my dampened shirt but I could still hear his words clearly.

"I'm not letting you go, we'll always be together" I reply hopelessly.

Now im crying too. I raise my head from resting on L to see Rem smirking in the background, what the heck is that all about? She's holding her Death Note while frantically scribbling something inside of it. Behind her,  Misa is glaring at me; mouthing "I know your secret". Huh? Does she mean me and Ryuzaki? but that's not real it's just a plot to find out his name?!

I can't see Ryuk but I can hear him cackling and tutting, tch, jerk.

I have to get out of this rain, I'll catch a cold.  I lift Ryuzaki and cradle him like a baby,  why didn't I just leave him? I find us a couple of towels and hand one to him,  wiping away his remaining tears whilst doing so. 

"Thanks" he murmured, gratefully. 

We dry ourselves of as best we could but our clothes were still dripping.  We walk hand in hand to our room and carefully remove one another's soaked clothing until we are left just in our underwear. 

"You'd better not look, Ryuzaki!" I joke. 

"Why not? I've seen it all before?.." he sounded serious. What is he on about?

I remove my boxers and walk over to our chest of drawers to retrieve a new pair, however, I'm abruptly stopped by 2 hands working their way around my waist,  over my hips and down to my groin. 

It was so enticing, taking his hands off of me was truly a difficult decision.  I replace my underwear and return my attention to him. A sudden burst of lust and excitement coursed through every vein and artery in my body.  Just seeing my submissive superior standing shamelessly in nothing but his boxers made my emotions spark and burn.  I wanted him all to myself,  I wanted to love him; to protect him.

"L..Light... I really.. d..don't feel so...good... my heart.. it.." with that my love collapsed onto the floor.  I leapt to the ground to catch him before his collision but it didn't affect the outcome one bit.  Ryuzaki died, of a heart attack. Rem, you bastard.

I cried out for my love,  not knowing that I was actually crying out for real.

{L's point of view }

"Ryuzakiii!... No!.. You can't be dead!... No!"

Light was calling out in his sleep,  he seemed to be experiencing some sort of nightmare.  Im unfamiliar with the concept of nightmares as I have rarely slept in my life, however I know of them,  and it breaks my heart to see Light suffering through one.  I ease myself on top of him gently,  while he continues to whimper,  and slowly place my lips on his. 

"I'm right here" I whisper into his ear. 

Relief washes over his face and I too relax a little.  I press my forehead on his and begin to wonder what kind of images he'd seen.  No matter the circumstances it was obvious something had happened to me,  and that clearly made him distraught.  I was so engulfed by my deductions that I hadn't even realised my partner staring up at me with cloudy eyes. 

"R..Ryuzaki?.. What're you doing?...Why aren't you asleep?.."

"I'm sorry Light-kun, you were crying and that upset me. I just wanted to comfort you,  I couldn't deduce how to do so, but somehow ended up succeeding." I smile bleakly at him with embarrassment. 

"You kissed me, didn't you? I can still taste your mouth" he smiles back.

I nod. We cuddle together for a little longer while Light returns to his dreams. I however,  cannot sleep again tonight.  The peace was nice while it lasted,  but right now I'm worried for Light.  Perhaps he is not Kira,  but is being controlled by him.  Is Kira using Light's emotions to torture him before his death? No! I mustn't think like that.  God damn it. My emotions are getting in the way. 

I go downstairs to get a coffee and think things over clearly.  If Light's out of sight,  he's out of mind, and I can focus fully on my investigation into this mysterious massacre. 1 sugar.  2 sugars. 3 sugars.. 4 sugars... 5 sugars... I continuously pile the cubes into my cup, not realising that the coffee was actually flowing out onto the surface. There is still a 2% chance that Light is Kira, but seeing him sleeping so innocently makes it hard to believe that he is a cold blooded killer... I wonder what I'd do if that suspicion were to become a reality, if I were to have fallen in love with Kira. Could I turn my back on him and watch as he is hung for his crimes?  I honestly have no idea... I want to look after him,  I don't want any harm to come to him... if I protected him as Kira would that make me a bad person?

I realise this is a bad idea and that I'm not going to make the slightest progress tonight so head back up to Light's perfect sleeping form.  I gaze over him; admiring his flawless complexion and stunning abs. I feel almost like a guardian angel, watching over him while he sleeps, prepared to battle if any harm should come to him.  He begins to sleep talk again,  most of it isn't even recognisable as vocabulary,  however as he continues to dream I notice a strange string of words slipping from his parted lips...

"I'm sorry...Kira...  I love him... what is your name... I am Ki... L... Justice... Shinigami bastard... I'll kill you..."

I guess he must be having another nightmare, but why the sudden outbursts on Kira? Perhaps Light is closer to the perpetrator than I'd allowed myself to believe after becoming intimate with him. I record everything he says so that I may analyse it at a later date when I am less concerned for him. For now though,  all I can do is sit by his side and comfort him. Not even 10 minutes ago I was ready to clear him of all suspicion to avoid discovering the worst.  Perhaps finding the truth about my... no, erhm... Light.. is inevitable.

Who are you Light Yagami?...

Sorry if this isn't as good as the others you guys,  just another quick little chapter to help push the story line along :) I promise a decent lengthy chapter will be making an appearance soon! It's just ive been taken in to the world of EreRi/RiRen and this new shingeki no kyojin ship is literally my life ;-) please keep letting me know what you think!  it really is appreciated,  okay byeee!xx
- 30.07.14: As promised Im currently working on my new chapter "the truth is" and it will be the longest chapter yet!  This should be up by tomorrow evening and I will be asking my readers some questions about how to progress :-) Thank you to everyone who has read/voted/commented so far! Love you all :-* x -