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Chapter Sixteen ; Set Me Free

The end of our mini vacation felt horrible. Definitely, I did take it for granted. Currently, Parx was on stage, Jawn on the ground taking photos of them to post later. As always, I'm on the sidelines, watching from the back. We're back to the same boring day after day routine.

I was thinking that for the next show I would go in the crowd. No one really knows who I am or how I look, so I think I could pull it off. Having a different point of view of these concerts may make it even more enjoyable to watch.

Copying the other nights, they finished off with Tantrum and then strutted offstage. Awsten carefully put his guitar back in its holder, so did Geoff. Jawn caught up with us afterwards as we were going back to the bus. Lucas stayed back to make sure everything was going smoothly and things got where they needed to be.

The three band boys undressed from their concert clothes into pyjamas. Expecting the two kids wouldn't say anything about me changing in front of them, I grabbed my pyjamas out of the bunk and began getting dressed for bed. As I hoped, both Geoff and Otto had nothing to say about me feeling free about getting ready to sleep.

Everyone went to the lounge to play Mario Kart, aside from Awsten and I, who were almost finished slipping our clothes on.

When I was done pulling my shirt through my arms, I examined Awsten. Sweat was beading down his forehead, dripping down to his jaw. Seeing my chance, I walked up to him, placing my mouth near his ear. "Fuck, you look so good right now," I said with a barely inaudible moan.

As I took a step to get to the lounge, a rough grip tingled up from my wrist. Whipping around, Awsten didn't let go like he did last time. His eyes showed me all I needed to know and what he wanted was me. Unlike what he would do before, he felt like it was right to bite his lip down hard.

"I can't handle you anymore." His hands shook just hearing the words coming out of his mouth. This wasn't the Awsten he knows but this is the Awsten that I was starting to observe. Ever since that night when we played 20 questions, I knew there wasn't only a shy, friendly Awsten in there.

So quickly that I didn't have time to ask him what he meant, his lips crashed onto mine with more force than he's always used. Fingers rushed up to my hair, pulling on it gently. I can't lie, I like this. I've been loving this.

Taking steps back, we eventually were at the back of the bus, in the washroom. Closing the door slowly so that no one would hear it, Awsten placed me against it.

My heart was beating in bewilderment and lust. The way his skin touches mine gives a rush to my blood. Our breaths were fast and hitching at every move. One hand in my hair and the other on the door, keeping me secure in place. His tongue would occasionally slip its way along the side of my mouth then lashing back inside of his mouth, scared to cross a line.

This was the Awsten I was eager to know at the start. The one that would peek through his cute persona. The one that I caught in his bunk.

Backing up, Awsten pulled me away from the door, his strong hand reeling me toward his waist. He rotated us around, pressing me against the counter. As I would've dreamed, he lifted me up from the bottom and placed me on the messed counter.

This time his hands were on either side of my thighs, pushing himself on me. As innocent as kisses can be, this wasn't one of the innocent ones. My lips began getting raw, needing something to drink.

Cutting myself off from the kiss, I put my head on his shoulder. That didn't stop Awsten though. Going wild, his lips left sloppy kisses on my exposed neck. It felt like silk against my surface.

Deep breaths from my nose and out my mouth, it calmed me down for the moment. We sat there in each other's silence for simply minutes, his kisses getting less common.

For one of the boys to walk in during this, I know they wouldn't be surprised. It was going to happen at any moment during this tour. To be honest, I think they all bet on when Aws and I would get together. If this counts as getting together, I wonder who won the bet. I hope it's Jawn.

"We aren't friends anymore," Awsten's burning breath caressed my collar. Anyone could be in this situation and know that after making out that the person isn't just a friend anymore. Except I'm not the anyone here. Awsten is my best friend.

You know what, fuck it. We've made it this far that saying I don't love him more than a friend is weirder than what happened.

"I know." Pulling myself out of the hole that only considers Awsten as a friend, I connected our lips once again. If being more than a friend will help me show Awsten how much I care for him then no doubt I will.

Our kiss was pure, unlike the last. Foreheads lightly touched together, bringing us closer. This didn't last long, as we wanted to figure out what to call ourselves as soon as possible.

Holding my hand in his Awsten led us back to the bunk, allowing me in first. My back went against the end of the bunk, cold.

Shifting in with me, Awsten tugged the curtains closed. "Can we do that more often?" I'd take that as his way of asking me out.

I weighed the options in my head. On one hand, I can decline. That comes along with the baggage of letting him down. For the rest of this tour, I'll be left feeling guilty for rejecting my best friend.

On the other hand, I can publically love Awsten without feeling conscious about it. Our little kissing fits won't have to be quiet, and the others are plainly expecting us to kiss more by now. The constant longing for needing another's lips on mine can be satisfied. We can hang out as more than friends and everyone knows how much we love each other.

After being deep in thought, I had to find a way to word it. It's so late, I can tell him anything and it can suffice. "Awsten," I beamed, giving away my answer. "I didn't think my answer would change so suddenly, but I'd love to be with you."

Exactly as I thought would happen, Awsten pulled me into a hug. We stayed in our body heat, happy with the decision.

He spoke so quietly that it was hard to hear even with him right against my ear, "Can we not tell them yet?" Referring to the others on the bus, I understood. They would be giving us so much attention due to our romantic happiness.

"Of course." That was the last to come out of either of our mouths that night, as we fell asleep, content to be near one another.

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