saved me | awsten knight

Chapter Thirty-Two ; Enjoy Right Now, Today

The fight that happened about Robert kissing me never seemed to disappear, though. When I would tell Awsten I was going to/leaving work, he'd get really fidgety and I knew it was because I'd be too close to Robert.

I never asked Robert why he kissed me, but he soon figured out I knew. The way I side-eyed him when he would mention how Awsten and I were doing. Somehow, he managed to change all of his shifts so they wouldn't align with mine, but there was the odd time I'd see him when I'd get off work.

Awsten and I were back to normal and on speaking terms, comfortable being around each other and that's the only place we wanted to be. Now that I knew finally that Awsten has a cat, I found myself paying more attention to Jet than I would Awsten.

Every Saturday when I would go over, I'd sit on the couch and leave a spot for Jet to jump up. Awsten certainly didn't like that I wasn't pressed up upon him like I usually was, but it brought a smile to my face when I would see him pout.

We started taking walks together and didn't map out our routes, so we'd be walking for God knows how long until we find a street we recognize. Days following days, we'd meet up at either of our places, walk on unmarked roads, talk about our lives, then somehow find our way back.

Awsten would hint at us living together every time we would walk. It started off small then gradually increased with his signs. He went from 'I hate being so far away from you sometimes' to 'Boy, wouldn't it be fun if like, we lived together? Awesome, right?!'

Also, I started getting morning sickness, an apparent sign that I was, in fact, pregnant. The first time I woke up and felt sick I was with Awsten, and he had a mix of two emotions: sympathy and excitement.

Later that day he left me to go buy a pregnancy test. He came back with three, just to make sure. While I took my time in the washroom, Awsten sat on the floor outside of the door, knocking every ten seconds to ask if he can come in.

My fingernail in my mouth, I stopped myself from biting down when I saw the plus symbol. Awsten had knocked twice since I've seen it and had no idea what wave of emotions I was going through. Time felt as if it had stopped; the only person moving was me.

Awsten got scared because I wasn't answering him, so he took it upon himself to open the door, no matter if I didn't allow him in. There we stood, silent and frozen, glued to the pregnancy test that told me I'm pregnant.

"Holy shit," he said faintly, "Holy shit!" The once calm room was now being echoed with shouts, still stunned with the results. "Shit, shit, shit!" He repeated, pacing around the very small washroom, unable to stand still. His arms wrapped around me, about to squeeze me but stopping because "The kid might be there now."

It wasn't long after when Awsten told me they would be going on Warped Tour. Obviously, he wanted nothing more than to bring me along like they did the last tour. Unfortunately, Warped Tour only allowed performing members on the buses due to planning so it wouldn't get so crowded.

"I'll miss you," Awsten whined as he hugged me, burying his face in the crook of my neck. He was far too tall to easily do it, but he knelt down a bit so he was shorter than me.

Petting the back of his head, I said, "I'll try to come, I promise." If I wasn't able to see him for more than a month, I'd do anything to see him once during this tour. Luckily and tragedically, the Houston date was early in Warped, meaning I'd see him once during the beginning and then having to wait a whole month before we see each other again.

Watching him leave to get on the plane to Pomona, I waved, starting to feel empty. Now all four of my best friends would be gone for more than a month, leaving me stranded.