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The Answer (Part 1): Chapter 11

I didn't know what to say... I was in complete shock.

My mind came back into reality when I saw his mouth moving.

"Don't die on me Al." He smirked at me. "I mean, what would I do with all of this food if you died?"

I playfully shoved his shoulder.

"Jimmy, I don't know what to say. Oh my God." I looked down at the ground.

I didn't know what to do. My heart was racing. I wanted to say yes. But the only thing keeping me from saying yes... Is Anthony. I don't want him to hurt Peter. Even though he is his child, he could careless. He would hurt him just to hurt me.

"Alicia, it's okay," he looked a little disappointed but still very understanding. "You don't even have to answer right now okay? Let's just make tonight magical. That's all I care about at this point."

After we ate dinner, he brought me to the bedroom. There were rose pedals all over the bed and candles lit the room. He turned on some quiet but romantic music.

"Would you care to dance my lady?" He held out his hand.

I didn't say anything. I just gave him my hand. He pulled me in close and wrapped his arms around me. I wrapped my arms around his neck and we just swayed back and forth in eachother's arms for what seemed like forever. He had his head nuzzled in to my neck. I could feel him smiling. It was so adorable. I pulled my head off of his shoulder.

"What's wrong?" He asked. He sounded worried.

"Nothing. I just want to look at you, that's all." I said with the biggest smile on my face. He blushed and he kissed me.

We continued dancing.

"I could really use a drink. Would you like some wine or beer or anything?" He asked.

"Whatever you're havin' I'm fine with," I said sweetly.

He brought me a glass of wine.

"Thanks babe."

"Yeah no problem."

Just as he was about to take a drink, I stopped him.

"Before you take a drink, it's my turn to say something to you... I love you. I love you with all that I am and all of this seems like a fairytale. No one has ever treated me so kind and no one has ever shown me as much love as you have. You are the light in my dark world. Before you came along, I didn't know what love was. Well, I thought I did but now I know that that wasn't even close to love. You make me unbelievably happy James. You don't even understand. Yes, I LOVE the fact that you do all of this stuff for me. But when I say 'You didn't have to do this,' I truly mean it. You don't have to do all of this so make me happy. Just being near you is absolutely amazing. You are so good with Peter. He loves you. So much. Almost as much as I do. You are my prince. And to be completly honest with you, you are my hero. You and Peter. Without you, I have no idea where I would be. I would be the same boring person I was at the beginning of the year. The only thing keeping me here, here in this fucked up place we call a world, are you and my son. That's it. So, I would like to make a toast... To our future together. May it last... A lifetime."

I saw his eyes get teary eyed.

"That-- Wow. I can't even--"

I cut him off.

"Shh-shh-shh. You don't have to say anything." I took his glass of wine and mine and set them on the night stand.

I gently layed him on his back and began kissing him.

I was taking control now.

I started kissing his neck and started unbuttoning his shirt.

"Oh my God Alicia," he said while I slowly moved my way down his chest.

I kissed his abs. That's when he pulled my body back up so we were face to face.

He looked at me with his breath taking eyes and tucked my hair behind my ear.

He just sat there and looked at me, as if I was a gift from Heaven. He didn't say one word. He just continued looking into my eyes and playing with my hair. He heald my head in his hands and I saw his eyes keep looking from my eyes to my lips. He then pulled my face closer and pecked my nose and then kissed me with his soft lips.

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I ended up staying the night at Jimmy's last night.

It was 9:56 a.m.

"Babe I've got to go. Thank you for last night and for this morning." Before I walked out the door, I gave him a kiss and left.

As I walked out of James' house and got into my car, I texted Anthony.

"We need to talk. Now."

"Where?"

"My place. Get your mom to watch Peter."

"Will do."