Who Would Have Guessed?(Austlan Cashby)

Answers - Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty

Austin’s P.O.V.

 

I was mildly hurt by his statement. He didn’t seem to care that I had confessed my love for him. Love may have been a strong word to use, and most people would find it childish and immature, but it was the only true feeling to describe our situation. “Why do you want to know?” I gasped. Telling him about Shay and I, wasn’t something I ever planned on doing, even though I’d knew the time would eventually arrive. “To truly know that we love each other, there can’t be any secrets between us. That also includes our past dating lives. I’ve told you everything there is to tell about Stephanie, and I want to know about you.” Alan continued to press the issue.

 

I refused to give in, but I was only keeping up the act by avoiding eye contact. Looking into his eyes would mean I’d given up. He was truly a kitten, because his touch, look and voice would make you melt, and tell him your life story. I had my back turned to him, and was trying to ignore his comments. To my dismay, his voice started to leak through my sound barrier. “You promised me. You can’t break a promise Austie.” his perfect voice was haunting. His arms snaked around my waist, and his head found a place on my shoulder. He had to slightly stand on his tip-toes to reach my shoulder, but none the less, he was doing it.

 

His silky voice went through my brain once again. “Austie,”  he whispered in my ear, “You promised. You should really keep that promise.” Chills went down my spine. The effect he was having on me was something I’d never experienced before. I didn’t know how to react. I wanted to spill everything to him, and be completely honest between us, but I knew that it could potentially ruin what we have. Shay and I had a lot more to us, than Alan and I do. I didn’t want to make him jealous, and I also didn’t want him to assume I still had feelings for him. Shay and I were would be over forever. The things he did to me, were things I couldn’t return to. They were also things I didn’t want Alan to know about.

 

Alan was repeatedly kissing my neck in different spots, trying to trigger something in me. I eventually gave in after the tenth or so kiss, and turned around. I gazed into his eyes, and lost myself. I could stare into them for multiple infinities. “Austie.” he mumbled, as he eyed my lips. I watched him, and carefully observed his every move. He would glance at my lips, then back up to my eyes for only a second. He looked like a ferocious Lion about to pounce on it’s wounded prey. I was seconds away from releasing my information. Unfortunately, that’s exactly what happened.

 

“It started a few weeks before we abducted you into the band. I wasn’t exactly part of the band, but like, I still stayed in touched with the band. I was really lonely, so was Shay, so we kind of hooked up. More than once. We starting taking it a little bit further, and we had a real life relationship. It was scary, because I’d never been intimate with another guy before, so this was all knew to me. Hell, I’d never even dated a guy. So you can understand why I’d be a little bit timid.” I was talking too fast for my own good, so I stopped to take a breath. This next part was the only thing I didn’t want to tell him, but I had to.

I took a deep breath and continued. “Around the time when you and I started talking, Shay and I started breaking apart. I was slowly becoming more and more uncomfortable with him around me, and I was starting to think he was using me for sex, because that’s all he wanted to do. I began to hang out with you more, because from the moment we met you became intoxicating. By the way, I love you,” I took a small second to acknowledge my appreciation for him, and give him a kiss, “He was getting really jealous, and upset. Then one night we were fighting. He wanted to stop fighting, so he told me he loved me, and then I didn’t respond.” I stopped completely to hold back my tears.