Satisfaction

Chapter 7

I stood outside the park with my heads in my hands trying to compose myself before I go in there to do what I have to do. I took breaths to calm me down and thought about what I was trying to accomplish. I had to do this despite the possible result. I could either walk out of here with his hand in mine or with my head held high. After a minute, I felt ready. I fixed my hair a little before stepping into the park and continued along the path, searching for Scott.

POV Scott

I was sitting underneath a tree by the pond. Kirstie, Avi and Kevin were over at the bench not too far away just hanging out. Every second I had, I was looking down at my watch to see what time it was. Mitch called me a half hour ago, why wasn't he here yet? What he wants to talk about seems pretty important. I really hope he can explain why he was so mad at me this morning, I just really want to know what I did wrong and how it hurt him. It was really eating me up right now. And come to think of it, I have a few questions for him as well. I checked my watch one more time, looked around, and sighed deeply.

POV Mitch

I found Kirstie, Avi and Kevin sitting at the bench talking about some musical artists they were really into. Normally I would join in this conversation but I didn't want to be distracted. I walked up to them and asked, "Hey, do you know where Scott is?"

"Oh Mitch," Kevin exclaimed, "Scott's waiting for you over the pond. He said you wanted to talk to him about something?"

I nodded. He gave me a confused but I just began walking in Scott's direction. After a few steps, I saw him sitting cross legged underneath a shady tree, playing with the grass. I gulped as I grew closer to him. Once he was at my feet, I cleared my throat to grab his attention. He slowly looked up at me with concerned eyes.

"Hey," I said, trying my best not to show how nervous I was.

He stood up and gently grabbed my upper arms. I almost melted at his touch. "Where've you been all this time?" I could tell he was so worried about me but I couldn't even look at him.

"I've just been around, I needed to do some thinking." I said softly, still not looking directly at him. I could feel myself wanting to but I wasn't going to let myself cry in front of him.

He put his hand against my cheek and moved my head so that I would face him. "I don't understand why were you so mad at me earlier."

My eyes widened. "Wait, what? Mad at you? Why would I be mad at you?" Oh no, this is what I was afraid of.

"Well it sure looked like you were with the way you talked to me earlier." He said sternly.

I shook my head eagerly, "No, no, I wasn't angry at you, I was only mad at myself..."

Scott raised an eyebrow, "What?" I wanted to explain myself but I couldn't get the right words out. Scott wasn't having it at all. "And why have you been acting so weird around me lately? You seem so distant. I thought it was because you wanted to be around me more since I know you had a break up recently. So I tried to get closer to you but you just kept pushing me away... And I don't know why." His face was getting redder by the second.

Don't you hate it when you rehearse how something is going to go down in your brain but then when you actually go to say it, the other person doesn't stick to the script? This is really the first time I've ever seen Scott this annoyed and it hurt me to know that I was the one at fault.

"Scott, you have done nothing wrong." I said, looking him straight in the eyes. He crossed his arms.

"Then why?"

And here comes the projectile word vomit. I tried to stop myself but the words were already uncontrollably spewing out of my mouth. "Because I'm in love with you, alright? I just realized I have this big dumb crush on you and there was nothing I could do about it! It just... I just..." I acted on an impulse, got on the tips of my toes, shut my eyes and slammed my lips against Scott's. What was actually about two seconds felt like two hours as time and space stood still. For a second I thought I could see heaven. I separated my lips from his and slowly opened my eyes. I looked up at Scott and saw him with a dumbstruck look on his face and his mouth opened slightly. Realizing what I just did, I gasped and put my hands over my mouth.

Scott shook his head and fell out of his daze. He furrowed his eyebrows and stared down at me. At this point I felt a lot shorter than I already was. "Mitch! Why did you kiss me?! Why even... Why even tell me all this when you know I'm already in a relationship? What made you think that was a good idea? You're so lucky Alex isn't here right now, I don't want him thinking I'm cheating on him because I would never do that to him!" He blew up at me.

I worriedly put my palm against my temple and tried making amends. "I'm sorry, I wasn't even thinking, I--"

"Yeah, I could see you weren't thinking. In fact, I bet you didn't think about how I would feel about all of this you just dropped onto me!"

"That's not true!" My voice was catching. That's literally all I've been thinking about and Kirstie and Eileen can vouch.

Scott was about to start yelling at me again but then he paused. He shut his mouth and turned around, not saying anything else. At some point, the tears had started rolling freely down my cheek but I hadn't even noticed when. I began hearing rapid footsteps behind me and I saw that they belonged to Kirstie, Avi and Kevin.

"What just happened?" Kirstie demanded, standing in between Scott and I. Avi and Kevin were just as concerned. Scott still said nothing.

"I took your advice, that's what!" I sobbed. I stormed off to I don't know where, I just needed to get away. What I really wanted was to pack up all of my things and go back to Arlington, back to my parent's house and never ever leave the house again.

"Mitch, wait!" I heard Kirstie call, but I ignored her.

I stopped at the other side of the park where I wouldn't have to speak to anyone and I crashed down on the ground and cried my eyes out. I let out a heavy breath. I really hated myself right now; it seemed like I couldn't do anything right. I was so foolish in thinking that Scott would be okay with this massive crush I had on him. I gripped my hair in my fingers and started pulling as hard as I could. I stopped when the pain became too unbearable and I curled myself into a ball, making myself as tiny as possible.

I wasn't planning on gaining a lover today, but I wasn't expecting to lose a friend either.