HURT | namjin.

twenty-six

Namjoon looked at his hand it was visibly shaking. Hell, it wasn't just his hand his whole body was uncontrollably shaking. He was so damn nervous, he had a pool of anxiety in his stomach and a head full of stress. Taehyung caught his eyes and flashed him a quick smile, reassurance was visible in his eyes.

He smiled back at him, and at Jungkook who was curled up next to Taehyung, the very picture of content. They were so happy together, all soft smiles and sweet touches.

He thought he wanted that type of love. He wanted that with Jin. But yet he was engaged to Ji-hye.

To be truthful, he wasn't even sure why he had said yes when she had proposed to him. In all honesty he had even thought that they were going to actually end it, but then she had proposed to him. And he'd said yes.

He knew why he said yes, he said yes because he didn't want to feel alone anymore. Namjoon had hoped having Ji-Hye in his life would change that. But it didn't he still felt alone, they rarely spent time together, other than to go shopping or go to parties of course.

In the end Namjoon was still alone. And as much as he hated to admit it, he knew he didn't love her anymore. Somewhere along the way, he didn't care for her the way he used to. He didn't know what he was supposed to even be doing anymore.

But now Jin was coming back and all that did was make him even more confused that better. He ran a hand through his hair and sighed, he was going to break it off with Ji-Hye. It wasn't the reason he was doing it, but he'd even seen her with that man Hanuel. They looked happier together than he ever had with her, or she had with him.

Even after all she'd done for him, he wanted her to be happy. Ji-Hye was a complicated woman, but she was not the woman he had met once. She was not who he wanted anymore, Jin was. And he had not idea what to do about that, he at least looked better than normal, all his other members had even complimented him.

He had even bothered to put on some light makeup, not enough that anyone other than him would be able to tell he put some on. But just enough so he looked better than usual. Just enough so Jin would look at him, in that soft way he used to do.

Entering the place in the airports that they waited, Namjoon reminded himself to breathe in and out as he took a seat. He was actually quite proud of himself, he hadn't taken any of those pills for the whole damn month. Just the thought of Jin coming back had kept him going.

"It'll be okay" Hoseok softly said flashing him that smile, the one that had made every one give him the nickname sunshine. Namjoon was just about to smile back when he saw him. Him as in Jin.

The first thing that flew across Namjoon's mind was he looked different. He was still as beautiful as he had ever been, but now he looked more refreshed. Gone where the tears and the red face from the last time Namjoon saw him. Instead he was almost glowing, he looked happy.

The second thing he noticed was how Jin's hand was draped around Jimin. It made Namjoon feel jealous, but he knew they were just friends.

Trailing behind Hoseok, he slowly walked over to them, in a bit of a trance. Standing right in front of Jin he literally froze, what was he supposed to do be doing now?

He then heard Jin's windshield laugh as he said "Aren't you going to hug me, buddy."

Buddy. Buddy. Jin had never called him that before. Namjoon wasn't sure why but the word almost made him feel ugly. But he ingored it and hastily taking a step towards Jin he pulled him into a hug.

He smelled different, a good different but still different. He felt different too, stronger more built. Better, as if he was too good for Namjoon now. Pushing those thoughts out of his mind, Namjoon clung on to Jin tighter.

"Ahem" Jimin coughed, eyeing him and hastily Namjoon pulled away, he pulled away even though he wanted to stay there for the rest of his life. He didn't feel empty anymore, it'd only been a few moments but he felt happier than he'd ever felt in the past ten months.

He couldn't remember the last time he'd been happy, he'd really missed Jin. Jin smiled at him, something sad hidden behind his smile. As if sensing that suddenly Jimin whispered something into Jin's ear, making him brust out laughing.

Namjoon wanted to make Jin laugh so he went and said something stupid "Are you and Jimin dating now or something" he said causally and brust out laughing at the idea.

But then his laughter immediately disappeared when he saw the look on their face. "Actually we are" Jin replied crossing his arms across his chest and frowning. What now?

Namjoon blinked once, twice, and finally uttered "You are."

"Yep" Jimin mummered and holding onto Jin tighter, he sweetly replied "It's actually been a couple of months now."

Smirking at the look on Namjoon's face, Jimin leaned up to Jin's ears and softly whispered"I love making people jealous."

Jin laughed at this and just to put the icing on the cake he kissed Jimin's forehad.

"Well I'm happy for you guys" Namjoon forced out, eyes watery as he took in the sight in front of him. Everything had gone downhill so fast, all the hope he had for the past month was gone. All that previous happiness was gone too, just leaving behind a foolish hurt man.

Jin laughed not a nice laugh either a cruel one "I'm sure you are, you must be really happy I don't love you anymore."

Namjoon froze, what was he even supposed to reply to that? Thankfully Hoseok sensing the awkward tension between them, interrupted him and said "Let's go get some food guys. It seems we have some catching up to do"

Smiling widely in Jin's arm, Jimin giggled. This was quite fun, and smirking at him Jin followed the reunited group.

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